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Wow the day finally came! I had my surgery at 7:30am on 8/17--it was very painful when I woke up. They blow your stomach up with gas and I am not going to lie that shit hurts! After I walked a few days the gas pain went away but then I had a horrible headache/migrain in reaction to the anestheia. I also had really high blood pressure that wouldnt go down, but that is normal when I have surgery, that always happens. After 4 days in the hospital I left feeling great and after a few more days at home to rest I went back to work today 8/25 and I feel pretty good.

Eating the ALL fluid diet sucks! I went to work and everyone had great smelling food that I could not eat but I stuck to my yogurt, cottage cheese, and protein shakes. I cant help but look forward and think of all the good food I will miss out on..I know thats crazy but my thoughts drift that way sometimes..lol!

I just wonder if this is forever, like can you NEVER have a small taste of pizza or bread again? I know I shouldnt be thinking about this but I just cant help it. I would like to be able to eat any kind of food but just not much of it.


Either way, I think I can handle it. I will just move forward because I would rather not eat certain foods than remain fat and unhealthy!

So my surgery is scheduled at 5:30am this morning! I am so nervous because all of a sudden I am finding all of this info regarding depression after the surgery. I looked everywhere for any drawbacks of the surgery for months and of course now, the day of, I find all of this info about people having issues with depression. I know everyone isdifferent though-I know that results vary with this surgery and I am expecting the extra skin and the questions from people at work. You dont know how you are going to react until you are in it, however, I just dont foresee any of these things being an issue. I know I will have to have a tummy tuck and breast lift maybe a whole body lift---either way I feel that I will be a healthier person for my daughter.

I am mentally stable--as far as I know..lol-- and I keep thinking that these people may have been emotionally unstable before the surgery! Oh well, I am just praying, I feel that things will not work out if God has not ordained this surgery for me. I know there are benefits and drawbacks--im certainly slightly depressed as a big person now--

Well, Im just ready to start this journey, I feel my weight has held me back in every aspect of my life! I have not done some many things due to my weight and its crazy. I am willing to take the risks for the potential of a happier, healthier, LONGER, life!

Please pray for me and I will update my blog as soon as I am coherent!

WOW! A surgery date! 8/17/2010--I am so nervous and yet the day cannot come quick enough! My great grandmother had a stroke and is in the hospital. I wasnt able to go visit her due to feeling sick today and needing the weekend to get everything prepared for the surgery--I feel so selfish for it, but I love her and will continue to pray for her recovery!

Im so excited, I feel like I can finally start my life after my weight comes down a bit. I have been fat my whole life.

Thankfully United Healthcare was great about approving me. I just needed a 6 mth supervised diet and a Physch Evaluation. I got my approval the day after my surgeons office faxed over the info.

I had to hurry and get my CPAP prior to the surgey--its required if you have been diagnosed with Severe Sleep Apnea. I did my post op on 8/11 and got the CPAP the same day--right in the nick of time. I really thank this lady name Jennifer for helping me get the CPAP stuff done so quickly as I didnt know I would need it until like the week before surgery!

I am so happy about where things are going thus far and will update everyone once I am out of the hospital. I have to remember to take a bunch of pictures today!

3/11-- Going to get this God awful Mirena removed and have an Annual OBGYN visit. I am also going to start my 6months supervised diet. I am hoping my doctor agrees to do the visit as my OBGYN is the only dr. I go to regularly (sadly). I guess I need to find a general practicioner!

So 1 month down 5 months to go! I can hardly wait for them to say YOUR APPROVED!

I am still working to find my weight watchers documentation---if I could just find that then I could possibly be approved sooner!

Right now I am so not happy but I can just feel that change is right around the corner!

I had my Psych Evaluation and the psychologist was very nice and gave us a lot of information. I am starting to think it may be best to wait the 6 months---he said losing some weight before surgery makes healing faster and it makes it easier on the surgeon. I have my first OBGYN/Weigh-in visit with the doctor on March 11th. I had to have surgery a few Thursdays ago for a CSF Leak. They did surgery but did not find the leak which pissed me off because I could have used the off time for after I have the surgery. As I investigate intercranial hypertension more--I think that is what has been causing some of my medical issues. They will be doing mroe testing regarding that in about 3-4 weeks after I heal from the surgery. I am so tired of being fat! My energy is just gone..im tired all the time which really puts a strain on activities with my daughter--if its anything active I currently avoid it because I have so much pain in my lower back if I stand for to long--this is such a bad and really sad and depressing place to be at only 28 yrs old! But its ok..regardless of what happens its about to change! I am going to call my coordinator about the intercranial hypertension thing tommorrow and see if my insurance will use that to qualify me---I want to wait the full six months but if I am going to feel like this every month, I just dont know if I can do it.

I have finally made the decision to seek WLS! I have tried every diet in the book (WW, Quick Weight Loss, Atkins Diet, Lemondae Diet, Ethans Fat Smash Diet, and South Beach--im sure there are probably more that I have forgotten)--all have resulted in minimal or NO weight-loss. I have been over weight my entire life and I am sooooooooo tired of being the FAT girl! I have managed to let my weight hold me back, affect my relationships, and second guess the awesome woman I am--to many times! It's over--I refuse to live within limits in 2010! I have prayed and prayed that God drastically change my life for the better this year and I honestly thing its going to happen! I am not going to let anything hold me back from reaching my goals!

I am currently seeking insurance approval through United Healthcare Buy-up Plan (with BRS). I have my Psych Evaluation on the 9th of Feb. and I really cant wait! I am waiting on my doctor to fax in my medical history but I am a bit anxious because I cannot find my membership book from Weight Watchers. My insurance is requesting that I provide  6mths of a doctor supervised diet! I am now thankful that I spoke with my doctor about WW when I was diagnosed with Hypertension. I hope that he notes that she provides are sufficient for my insurance--I plan on contacting my coordinator tomorrow to advise her of the WW situation. I really hope I dont have to start all over and wait for 6 months. I have dieted all of my life and 6 months will only prove what it has proved my entire life..that I can lose 10lbs and gain it back!

God is an AWESOME God, so I am totally praying that his will be done regarding this situation. I feel that if I just do the right thing good things will follow. Im so anxious to get my surgery date I dont know what to do--I have lived in this body long enough! LET ME OUT!