10/2/08
Oct 02, 2008
im now at 176.i want so bad to get away from the 80's just to make sure this is real.i have a good amount of extra skin and its bothering me now .it gets in the way soo bad .im seeing my primary doc next week to discuss removal of it .thankfully my ins will cover it.there arent any weight guidlines just a letter from my doctor saying its necessary.she s a pain i hope she doesnt want me to loose it all first.i want to loose 20 total between now and after surgery so all together ill be done.i want to start getting back to normal and not go down to such a small size that every weeks a struggle to stay there,thats the only way ill truly be successfull .so i m soooo freakin excited and i cant sit still .i guess thats a good thing!!!!!!
8/22/08
Aug 23, 2008
im 186 now.its getting exciting now i feel like this has worked and there is hope.its slow for me and really hard at times like when im cooking and serving dinner for my family.i specifically do not make my favorites because i think id go crazy.yes im hungry,all the time but ive started to get the hang of doing other things when emotional times or being bored kicks in.well whatever im doing my body is happy because for the first time in my life my nails are long ,hair is shiny and skin is healthy.i eat very little but its all good for my body.i have lymes disease and my energy is crap so i havent been walking ,i am going to change that before the winter comes and im stuck inside.i know that would help take another chunk off.my goal weight is 125 to 130 even if after i reach it i get a small unfill i expect to stay below 140 so thats why im giving myself a little room i dont want to have to dwell on what i eat but i will always keep it in mind.
ive been trying to put up a new profile pic and its giving me a hard time so im going to ask my husband for help .....new picks cmming soon.
since i started my weight loss process it has taken me a long time but my total weight loss is now 70 pounds....
8/10/08
Aug 10, 2008
ok im at 192 i thought that was progress untill i read my last post and realize i havent moved far.im busting my ass to get this weight off i had a fill and now its kicked in and its very tight so i am completly limited to yogurt,jello type food plain salad too.everything else hurts and causes trouble even drinks if im not careful.july was a very shitty month for me,i lost my step dad to cancer and than became crippled for a week and found out i have second stage lyme disease,ps so does my 5 yr old little girl as of last week and well finances are screwed and all has gone to shit!!!!!i feel like im going through some mid life crisis and im suffocating.so other than that well im still trying to get into the 180's.hope all is well with all of you.
untill next time....
7/26/08
Jul 25, 2008
195.4 seems my new diet is working ,for now.im scared everytime i weigh myself .i dont know if its going to go up or down ,its awful.i want out of the 90's sooo bad.ill post new pics soon.thanks for your support!
7/24/08
Jul 24, 2008
i know i said i wont watch the scale but i had to check and what do ya know...196.2
its a ways from where i began but still a ways from where i need to go.i still dont feel my new fill but im doing the routine as though i have,last night i walked my 4 dogs along with my 2 kids and that was a work out,seriously,so i guess it helped.whoo hooo on my way down!
almost to underland....
Jun 29, 2008
6/29/08
ok im now 202,what a tease!!!!!still on the same diet
my band has loosened a little so ive added salad ,maybe once every few days.im wondering if i should get another fill ,i think so because the yogurt isnt filling me up the way it did,but i was sooo hungry so maybe im in a good spot ,i dont know .i rather just get the weight off already.it feels good to finally be loosing i cant believe it took so long to be at the right amount of fill.well my birthday is july 10th and i really want to be under 200 pounds so,wish me luck .
5/28/08
May 28, 2008
ok so ive fluctuated a little but back to 210.still mostly sticking to slim fast shake in the am and yogurt for lunch and usually dinner.ive been trying different things but most foods get stuck except for the 2 homeade smores i had with my daughter tonight,BAD BAD ME!i admit im starving this is not easy......
5/21/08
May 20, 2008
ok since my last post i went back up to 226 .i spoke with my dr. and he said we'll try it one more time and if im not successful he will agree to do the rny.soooo...my band is so tight i can only drink shakes (im doing slim fast i cant take the protien)and eat fat free yogurt.in the last week ive gone down to 210.of course im weak so i cant do extra activity but i am very active to begin with so for now thats going to have to work.i have been constapated but my husband says maybe i just dont have anything in me.i dont know,i dont see how this will continue to work i feel like the second i can eat something that im going to start gaining back the weight ,im nervous its not really off....
4/7/08
Apr 07, 2008
im still not having any luck with the band ,everything is getting stuck except for sugary foods which of course are screwing up my diet.i made the dr appointments and hopefully they can help me work on a revision to something else thats more for me.i feel so desperate again like i have wasted all this time and effort and honestly im depressed i thought id be enjoying this summer for the first time in sooo many years .i havent even begun to loose weight yet.i hate this.
2/2808
Feb 28, 2008
i hate this band its the biggest waste of time for me.i weigh 219,i regret not going w/rny!!!!!!!!!!surgery was aug 17 th thats terrible,id be done by now if i did rny!i am so bummed...
