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As a child, I always felt "big". Bigger than my friends. Looking back at my photos, I think I was a fairly normal size. I don't know. My parents were constantly dieting. My mom died of brain cancer when I was 12. I think that's when I turned to food for comfort.
At 16 years old, I was 5' 5" and weighed about 130 lbs. I got a job at a health club/gym. I went on an extremely restrictive diet. I lost 10 lbs, but gained lots of muscle and fitness. I taught 2 floor-exercise classes a night, plus 2 aerobics classes a night, plus I did the machine circuit at least once a night. Best shape I've ever been in.
When I was 17, the health club burned down. Lost my job. Started taking over-the-counter diet pills. Lived one summer on diet pills, diet pepsi, and sloe-gin fizzes. Stayed skinny, but still felt "big".
I guess that's when the yo-yo dieting started. I would lose, and then gain it back and more over and over and over and over again. And now I'm extremely extremely overweight, too ashamed to admit my acutal weight--but it is exremely high (off the scales in most doctors offices...)
I'm tired of not being able to keep any weight off. I'm tired of being so fat. I'm tired of fighting my weight. I'm tired of being tired. I don't think I'll ever be "skinny" again. I just want to lose weight and be able to exercise again. To increase the quality of my life. And to increase the length of my life.
I think WLS is the tool that I need to get back on track.
