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This morning when I got up I looked at the scale and thought what would it hurt a few days early to check?
I hopped on and 198. I kept looking at it and was blown away. I felt a ton of emotions then broke out to the Risky Business Tom Cruise dance in undies and all!!

It has been 15 years since I have been under 200. I wish my Mom was still alive to see me. Working out has truely paid off. I am so grateful to my son for being my trainer and pushing me.

This journey has truly been a learning experience. I have learned that the sleeve is only a tool and that it is a lot of work but well worth it.

So, I will hit the gym again tonight. Keep looking ahead in my journey!!

Erin

My new years started on 9/21/10 the day of my surgery. From that point on each day was new and my resolution was
to learn the new me all over again.
Each day has been an adventure. Sure I have hit many bumps in the road but my celebration of a new beginning is on 9/21/10.
I wouldn't be honest if I didn't say each day presents with a new struggle but approaching them this time around has been different for me. I look at it as a learning experience and how to change things to adjust. It has given me a new attitude and outlook on life.
My head is still trying to catch up to my new tummy and there are times I miss being able to eat but it is becoming less and less each day.
My new focus is working out. Bless my son's heart he goes to the gym with me and is my trainer. He has learned so much in weight training and football that I can already feel the difference. Never is my wildest dreams did I think that would be bench pressing. On the days I want to blow it off he won't let me and by the time we are done I look at him and tell him I feel so good. His gift of a gym membership was really a gift to me.

In all the years of dieting I would hang on to clothes "just in case" I needed them again. Well, I am selling them on EBay and I haven't looked back. Clothes that have hung in my closest for years I am wearing and some are getting loose. When the scale doesn't move I know I am still losing inches.

This was the best thing I have ever done for myself. 9/21/10 is my New Years

Erin

I went to my 12 week check up and at the end i was asked would I do it again? I thought about
 it for only a brief moment and said ABSOLUTELY. It was like child birth it has become a distant memory.
The end result will be so worth it.
My labs for the first time in years I have a normal lipid profile my blood glucose is almost normal and all my
other labs have normalized. I no longer have headaches, joint pain, foot pain or intense itching after bathing
or being in humid weather I also no longer have hot flashes.
The other positive is I want to work out. I feel healthy. I used to take massive amounts of sleep aides to help me sleep
now I take Melatonin just one. I wake up refreshed and ready for the day

I have almost lost 60 pounds and am so close to onederland I can taste it. Are there any struggles? Every single day
I struggle with the meeting of the mind with my stomach. As soon as I get the two together I will be great.

There is no buyers remorse for me. It was the best gift I have ever given myself

Erin

Been plugging along. Dealing with sadness my head wants to eat and my sleeve can't handle it.
Just a few bites and I am done.  I want to adjust but my head is having a hard time catching up.
So, the consequences??? Been throwing up more and the foamies.

Learned the hard way with rice. OMG...... no one told me. I threw it all up haven't touched it since.

Life was so much easier on liquids and mushies. Now just waiting for my head to catch up with
my tummy

First I want to say thank you to all of your comments and your support on my last entry  It means a lot to me all
of the support I have gotten from everyone on this site.

So, the update is........ I asked " do you like your subscription to the Food Network Magazine?" Why you aren't getting it?"
Why not" I said. "You can't eat any of it and it makes you sick." HELLO?????????
I do not remember saying any of that. What I said was "I can eat everything you do" I choose not to and I don't eat that much." "Saturday I went to Buffallo Wild Wings and had a burger patty off the children's menu no bun.

What ticks me off is how dare you assume when you never even asked to see how I was after surgery. You attacked me with your remarks how you didn't approve. I don't remember asking you. All I wanted was your support and your friendship and you couldn't even do that???

You know what??? I am ok with it. I can walk away. I am so happy with my life since I was sleeved. I have found that some people who feel they are my friends aren't at all. They are also small minded. I feel I can move on. If she ever needs something and I can be there to help I will because that is who I am but emotionally I will never be connected again.

Hugs and Love to all of you on OH

Erin

I have been working from home lately. Many of you know that I was very close to a person here at work. when I told her I was having the surgery she was nasty, told me she didn't approve. It ended our so called friendship.
I have been back to work every now and then and not one person has said a word to me. I know they know. If they didn't they would notice I have been losing weight and would have said something.
I sit amongst all of them with little contact. Yesterday this person asked if I ate Thanksgiving dinner. I was shocked then she proceeded to tell me there is a patient that had the same surgery as I did and is now on tube feedings because she is no longer able to keep anything down.
I thought nice touch. All I said was well she didn't have my surgery. I guess i shouldn't have expected anything more. We are all nurses and I know how the saying goes that we eat our young, but I don't think I have ever come across a group of people that have been less than caring.
I will continue to come in the office but will do my own thing. Maybe it's time I move my desk. I don't know.

Erin

I thought if I would run faster it would never catch me. The dreaded hair loss. WRONG. It caught me this weekend.
**sigh** It didn't matter how much protein I have been taking in consistently it caught me.
I typically take in 70-90 grams of protein and 64-80 oz of fluids. I take in supplements, Biotin, Zinc..........wow how devestating unless i look at the overall picture. Would i go back and change things NO WAY,

So now I sit and wonder how long will this go on? I will be 9 weeks out tomorrow. Thank goodness I have long thick very thick hair. I just had cut into a bob and added some bangs. I use great shampoo and only wash every 7-8 days because it is so thick. I never brush it while it is wet. It took almost 18 months to get my hair healthy and looking great. (that was 6 years ago so I know it is healthy.

Oh well as they say this too shall pass!

Erin

Life goes so incredibly fast and before you know it a moment has past. My oldest came home this weekend
from college. I haven't seen him in a few weeks. it was great to have him home. We were on the go from Friday
night to Sunday It went too fast.

What is interesting is the amount of exercise I got. The feeling of energy and the amount of sleep I only required.
I would have NEVER been able to do this before surgery. I feel like I am finally joining the human race. When we
were in a store he came up to me and said you are really losing weight. This came from my child that said I should have
just exercised more. He said I am glad you are getting healthy.

Since trying to get on regular food I have been a little afraid. My son and I went to Subway and I ordered a 3 inch
turkey sandwich. I took off the bootom part of the bread and ate 2/3 of it. He had fun and laughed at me while he sat
and munched on a foot long. I felt so good.

Life is good. Each day is a new beginning.

Erin

Went for my post op check today. 5 weeks out now. Down 40 lbs and feeling good. Met with my NUT
and they said I can go ahead and eat. I find it odd that they do not look at carbs. I will be honest in saying I
am scared to death to eat.  My doc said go as slow as I need to as long as I get in at least 60gms of protein.
He also said that if I can't get in the 64 oz of water to keep working at i but don't beat myself up.

All of my incisions are almost healed. No complications and no complaints. I met with my exercise pysiologist
and I need to get back to working out. I have been back to work for a little over 2 weeks or 3 I think and have not
had the time to work out. When I was off work I walked everyday. This is the optimal time to maximize my loss.

So tomorrow heading to the gym to join. My son said he would go with me to ensure I would go. Once I do I feel
good and go often.

Onward to a continual loss

Erin

Even though we have surgery it is only a tool and we have to do the rest of the work.
I have worked really hard and follow my surgeon's instructions. The only part that I have
had a rough time is exercising because of lack of time and exhaustion with my work.

No one at my work has said a word to me about how I am looking. No one welcomed me back.
I am down two sizes. My son said to me if you lost it on your own maybe they would be happy for you.
You took the easier way out.

I am so sick and tired of hearing this. Yes I have a tool to help me feel full, lose weight but I have worked
my butt off. I am feeling down about it. I have stopped taking blood pressure meds, no longer pre diabetic
fitting in my clothes and I feel like I am getting beaten up.