jazzyblue
Pray before I panic!!
Mar 02, 2009
Okay it's been almost 2 months and I haven't posted anything. Well here is the update. On my last appt (2nd month) checkup, I gained 7 lbs. It's all water weight from fluid retention. Lately I've been having some stomach issues. Over the past 6 days, I haven't been able to hold anything down. I had a horrible weekend and just wanted to rest. I finally went to the doctor today and was told that I now have GERD and my blood pressure was elevated. Can't say that it's my gallbladder because it was removed years ago. Can't say i'm pregnant (I love kids but hell to the naw if they think I'm going to start over) because I had a hysterectomy, so I really don't know what happened. I'm upset and confused. Okay first, I've never had any kind of reflux problems and my blood pressure is always normal. Why now all of a sudden do I have these problems? My reason for having the surgery is to prevent health issues that I currently do not have or never had and now this comes up. I hope this doesn't stop them from performing my surgery. This has got to be a test to see if I'm going to be strong or will I break. I'm trying to be strong but I'm really not sure. I must complete that list on my page. Especially the bend down and not have to call on GOD to help me stand back up. I wonder if anyone else has had this kind of thing happen to them before their prospected surgery day. Well I just needed to vent a minute. Good luck everyone with your weightloss journey and please help pray for me that I can still have my surgery.
1st month visit
Jan 15, 2009
My 1st RNY/LapBand support meeting
Jan 10, 2009
that I was a newbie and she wondered if I had the surgery already. What made me upset with her was when she found out that I haven't had it done yet, she told the other lady that I should have been had it done like her ass wasn't as wide as a cadillac. This lady is still way way bigger than me but have the nerve to call me fat. I was the bigger person because I could have called her big ass two tons of fun but I didn't go there. Anyway, other than this bitch, I was doing just fine. I met some really nice people there and they answered my questions openly. I didn't realize there was such a big difference between the lapband weightloss and rny weightloss. This couple was there and both had the surgery. He had RNY she had LapBand. He lost 70 lbs in about 4 months. She lost 40 in 9 months. He said she was depressed about it and now wish she went to the RNY like he did. Almost all of the people that got the lapband now say they wish they'd went to RNY instead. Not because of the amount of dedication to the tool, but because of the results they were hoping for and didn't receive. After researching everything, I've finally decided to have the RNY done
. I have a lot of discipline when it comes to foods that I'm not supposed to have
. If you've ever taken Xenical, then you know what I'm talking about.
. Despite the rudeness of some people, I'm going to still attend the meetings all the way until my surgery date arrives. I know my support for this decision will be low, but I know this would be the best option for me. If you haven't read my story, read it and you'll see why this is so important for me to do this. I know I said previously it will be the 15th before I wrote again but I just had to tell you all about my first RNY/LapBand support group meeting. See ya again on the 15th.
Just wanted to vent a little!!
Jan 03, 2009
Ever been in a situation where your body says one thing, but denial attempts to take over? Well that's where I was until a few days ago. I have arthritis all over my body and I'm taking meds for it. It helps but only so that I can sleep at night and not be in so much pain. I do hope that in about 4 months from now, I will be on my way to my weight loss journey. I got up from sitting and hit the floor. Yep I did what everybody else would have...I looked around 
because I was like WTH just happened. I know my legs didn't give out. On top of that, when I did get back up, my other leg sounded like popcorn. It was cracking so loud kinda sound like snapping your fingers. Anyway, I know all of this is related to the excess weight that I have right now. Can't believe it's 11:30pm and I'm still awake and venting. Guess we all need an outlet at times.
I feel so fortunate to have my kids. They love me regardless of how much I weigh and they also compliment me all the time. My girls are 8 & 10 and they both feel mommy is invincible. If they only knew how much my weight really affect my life, they would probably cry for me
. Other than my right knee and left leg (dang, I need to trade it in for a new model, huh?), I'm now starting to break out in rashes on my skin. It's in the creases that generate the excess heat so my doctor gave me a cream to use to kind of help with the breaking skin. I also have shortness of breath, asthma and I was diagnosed with sleep apnea a few years ago but after I scared my daughter with the CPAP mask, I haven't used it since. Did I also mention that my shoulder, back and neck hurts on a 24 hour basis? Lastly, I have excessive swelling in my ankles. Sometimes I will swell so badly that it's a struggle putting on shoes so I wear the stylish slide ins to mask the fact that I just cannot wear a regular shoe.
The plus side to all of this is that I refuse to complain. I have faith that things will eventually get better and I will feel better also. I have learned to deal with the constant pain and just smile because there is always someone else out there worse off than I am. I go back to my PCP on Jan 15, hopefully, I've lost a few pounds by then. Not asking for much, but anything would be a big help. I will update after my appointment on the 15th. I also have decided I'm going to have the banded surgery instead of the RNY. I've done a lot of homework on the RNY and even though the rapid weight loss is awesome, I'll rather go slowly so I can make myself learn how to eat and lose my weight. I want to thank all of you that helped me out with the Decisions--Lap Band or RNY discussion board replies. I'm building my support team now so I can have a full cheering section behind me once I travel to the other side of this wonderful journey.
My birthday is on the 23rd of this month and I'll be going on my yearly birthday trip. I wonder if the airline would laugh if I tell them up front when I check in "Hey, give me the extender now and we'll save a lot of issues later". Wow it's after midnight and I am still venting. Well I guess I'll go to bed now so I can be productive at church tomorrow. My first time going to this church so you know I have to "represent"!!! Be back on the 15th......
