JENNI S.

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Well, I saw Dr Suh today and got my staples out. I was told I can have soft foods and I was DOWN 18 LBS since the day of surgery 6-19-09.

What a day I went to the dr hoping that I was aleast 10 lbs down but I was really excited to see I am down 18. that is so amazing and unreal.


Next post op is on 7-21-09 at 230pm. so until then..

I am home and from the time I got put into recovery I dont feel this is real.

DId I really do it? I am so happy I did but, it feels like a dream.  For months I have been only thinking of the surgery and now thats it has come and gone  4 days post op. I feel like did it happen? Did I really do it? I am at peace its so werid for months it was will I loose enough weight, will i get approved, how much longer do i have to wait, what if I do it and hate it, what if i die? It has been so werid.

I wrote letters to my boys just in case something GOD forbid something happen. I was not going to but, then I thought if something does I want them to know what they meant to me. I will not give them to them now but I sure felt better going into knowing that I did.

I am writing down everything so I can keep track of everything and taking pictures everyday.. I plan to scrapbook my journey.

I am lucky I only have to do a liquid diet for a day. This morning I was starving but I made it with broth.  Then I had some sf pudding  and more broth.  lots of water!
 
I just got done with the crap we have to drink the magneissum cirrate I  got grape  it was not too bad at all I just drank it until it was gone. That  stuff worked within 25 mins. Holy crap  I was in no pain but, everything just pours out like a faucet. I know TMI for sure..  and embrassing but, I want to be able to help others  with the questions and also so I remember  my journey. 

Well I have not been sleeping well. I think I am so excited my mind never shuts down.  The only thing that is keeping me going and sane right now is my best friend Kelly.. She has been a really great taking all my calls and answering all kinds of messages she had wls like 2 years ago and looks amazing.

I have become addicted to OH. I wake up and this is the first thing I do. I check in all day long.  My mind gets full of all kinds of questions so I log on and normally find my answers or call my friend.. My mind is working over load. I am wondering what it is going to be like how much help well I need?  I know everyone is different but, still makes you wonder....

until next time....

I called the insurance this morning at 8:40am to just check on status of it..  I was blown away when the lady ( dennise) told me I was approved and gave me the auth number.. I screamed and woke up my two kids who were alseep.  I can't believe how good this feels..

I have read lots of sad stories about how my Ins. company sucks to deal with I have not really had any problems with them. I kept  thinking this is never going to happen for me. I think I am losing my mind. and wonder am I strong enough to do this? I found I can do anything I want and put my mind too.

  All the things I gave up are tottaly worth the feeling I got a few hours ago. I never tought I could live without them.. But losing almost 30pounds before sx shows me I can do anything...


I went to support group last night and was so pumped when I got home all I did was talk about group for a good hour to my husband dumb though he was with me at  group. He has been a great support to me and I am very lucky to have him in my life.



This is a new chapter in my journey to become the healthier new me. I just need my date...... please call soon...It was just approved last night so they dont have a hard copy yet.....


Thanks to all my friends and family for the love and support..     YOU ALL ROCK MY WORLD!

JEN

I have done the pre op tests. Ekg went well and I got a sooner date for the ultrasound. It was scheduled for May 23 but, I called and was very nice to the girl I spoke with and she moved my date up to 5/13/09. then I will have a Patient education class on 5/14/09 in the mean time I think I still have to see my PCP so she can put the the real request for surgery in. I feel like it is never going to be over.

I read all day long how people are getting authorized so fast and not so fast. I just want so bad to start my new life. I have been on the high protein no carb diet and that is making nuts because I dont even have a sx date to look forward too.

I am stressed out all day when ever I have to eat because I cant go up not one pound. I am so sad today I just want to get the show on the road I have been in classes and going to the dr. for the last year between 1 and 3 times a week for this program. I have learned alot and want to do this. I am not the most patient person in the world as you could tell.

Oh LORD please give me the strength I need to get though this hard time...

I am doing my pr eop tests on Thrusday May 7th. But, I have to wait almost a month for a ultrasound. I am so pissed off I dont understand why it take forever for a ultrasound that takes less than a half hour.

I was told we willl put you on a "waiting ' list I have worked in the medical feild before those listts are BULLSHIT..

Well, I have a week before I meet Dr. Suh. I am so nervous thinking about what he will tell me. Did i loose enough weight in my 6 month program? Have I changed enough things now for after surgery?
what will happen at my consult? How much longer do I have? I am ready for my new life. My asthma keeps me from doing alots of excerise. I have been super sick for the last month with pnumonia and have been on bed rest.



I read a post today that kinda bummed me out. It was about why do people have regrets? I turns out that the guy who started it caused lots of crap. I have always felt support and guidance here but today I was so upset I could not even post to his comments. I think that even if you are young or old no one should judge you. Their is only one man that can judge me and the last I heard GOD had not come back for us. The surgery is a TOOL to help us get back on track to living the best life possible.

Gastric Bypass

I have been putting this blog thing off for awhile. Therefore, we will see how it goes.

I always thought how lazy do you have to be to get this surgery.

It is the easy way out but I have found there is nothing easy about it.

You have to change everything you do eating habits, find out what foods you are able to eat, exercise, the way to think, how to cook , all the prep just to make sure you eat just the right amount of protein and drink just enough so you don’t starve yourself to death, everything will change I feel bad I ever thought it was the easy way out because not only are you signing a paper saying you understand you can die on the table but, most people who are over weigh will die with out it.

It is very emotional too. There is so much to list I have a huge binder on rules and ideas things we don’t think are a big deal like rice I am already saying goodbye to them now. There are pages of stuff you can never have again like sweets and gum because they could be stuck in the small opening.

I started my Gastric Bypass Program in May 2008 I weighed in at 283lb. I could not believe that I let myself go that bad. I was ashamed so, I went to a ton of meetings and classes. I got scared so I quit. Then I thought I am worth this "what’s 1 hour out of 1 week?"

Therefore, I got back on the wagon and told everyone I am going to do this.

I called my program to see if I could make up the 3 classes that I missed. Everyone was very helpful in getting me back on track. I think I really let myself not make those few classes because I was scared to death thinking of all the "what if's".. When I first started this program, I was not really thinking I would have the surgery I was on the fence. I did a ton of reading and saw how it has come so far over the last 10 years.

I made my choice to do it for me!

Jenni