K_Lee37
8 Weeks post op
Apr 18, 2009
I had my 2 month check up, and there is good news and bad. Good news is...i'm loosing weight and am right on target. Bad news...my iron level is very very low. The low end of normal range for women is a 12, and I am a 6. This would explain my NO enery level, paleness, and overall fatigue. I have been swithced to a different iron supplement, and am taking it 2x's a day. If I can't bring my levels up by next check up (30 days) then I will have to get an iron infusion. At this point I don't really care, just as long as I feel better!
I am finding that returning to work has been a challenge with my meals. I am having a difficult time with that, and making it through a 9 hour day. I am sure I am not eating enough, but I have a job that doesn't allow for eating whenever you please.
I feel badly for my kids, because by the time I get home, I have nothing left! I'm just pooped out. Praying this will change with my iron levels going up!
I am so irritable, moody, annoyed, aggitated...you name it..it is on my nerves! I don't know what this is all about...but I wish it would stop! Just having the tv on...omg! Everything seems really really loud!
I am making great progress on my weight, though i've been at a stall for 2 wks. I'm stuck at 180. I know i'm loosing weight, but just so darn tired, that I can't even work up the energy to get too excited about it! (now that's sad)
It's like being checked out...i'm going through all the motions, and doing everything I need to do to get through the day and when it's over I can't wait to go to bed and sleep...sleep...sleep! I don't really know what I did that day because every day is the same...kinda like on auto pilot...
I am faced with having to make some changes in my life, because this isn't working!
Thank the Lord there is Church tomorrow! I'll get my spiritual boost to carry me through another week!
5 weeks post op
Mar 23, 2009
Feeling so much better...like I am on top of this! I really believe that I can do it:) I went to work and picked up my schedule and I'm excited and feeling better about returning to work. I am definately getting into a rythem with my eating and it IS becoming a habit. I cannot believe how much I over ate! It is amazing how little I really need! It is also amazing that food is not the focus of day..it's just a thing I need to do...like taking a shower! I am not regretting for one second the decision to have the surgery! The first two weeks were rough, but i'd do it again in a heartbeat! My 2 month post op apt is right around the corner! I can hardly believe it! Hopefully I will be ok on my labs, but I have a feeling that i'm going to be low in vitamin D and Iron..since i've had a problem with that before! But nothing I can't handle! I'm just putting one in front of the other and working my tool so I can achieve success! Lasting success!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to start working my arms out! I wanna be able to wear short sleeves and not have bat wings!
1 Month Post Op
Mar 16, 2009
Ricks Birthday
Mar 04, 2009
I had a GREAT day today! 2 1/2 weeks post op and feeling great for the first time! I was buzy all day...I went shopping and ran a bunch of errands, visited my work...and celebrated my husbands birthday by making his favorite chocolate sour cream cake! What was weird was, I had no desire to stick my fingers in the batter...lick the spoon...or even taste a tiny bite! Before surgery...the desire would be so strong that I wouldn't be able to help myself, the craving would be so bad. Post surgery..I have no craving or desire for it. Very strange and very nice! Sweets were my downfall! I am also down to 198! The ONE'S!!!!! I am happy with the decision I made, as I know that my health is the better for it!
Can't wait to see where I am in another 2 1/2 weeks!
2 Week Check Up
Feb 27, 2009
I am down 20 pounds fully clothed and my bp went down as well 122/65. I also was able to put on my wedding and anniversary rings! That was exciting! My pants are baggy in the butt and thighs...tummy is still swollen and tender.
No pain meds and have been feeling in general really well! I still have a hard time riding in the car for long distances. I think it's because my car is really bumpy and has hard seats....I don't know, but by the time we are on our way back from the Dr.'s...I am just wiped out and my belly is hurtin' ..I had to take a nap today, I had just planned on lying down for a minute...and out I went....for 2 hrs! Looking forward to starting the next phase of my diet and introducing some new foods. Tonight I had canned chicken with a bit of hummus to moisten it...it was so yummy. I forget how small my pouch is...I only scooped 1/8 of a cup and in 30 min. I couldn't even finish it. Very strange when you put in on your little plate..the amount looks so miniscule, and I thought no way I'll be full off that...but when I couldn't finish it....the light bulb went on...WOW!!! Can't wait for what the coming weeks bring! I finally believe I can do it!!!!!!
1 week post-op
Feb 19, 2009
I also didn't realize how difficult it would be to watch my husband and children eat whatever they want! How difficult it is to prepare the food and not be able to eat it...to smell it and not taste it! It's like torture! You never can guess how you are going to act or feel in a situation until you are actually in it! WOW! May you never forget how hard this first week was!
This is just the first week of many to come and each day is closer to the goal, so one foot in front of the other I go marching forward
POST OP
Feb 17, 2009
Well surgery day came so fast! I was very nervous, and couldn't wait to just be done and know I'm going to be ok! Wow....It here, and I did it!!!
I did end up being roomed with a woman who was crazzzyyy! She kept trying to smoke it the room, she was yelling peoples names randomly and LOUDLY, she kept tearing out her IV's and leaving the room, so they finally strapped her to the bed. Then I got to hear "give me the keys"' and "somebody get me a knife" all night long! She still broke the keys and the lock to the strap and busted out of the room again! She left the tv on all day and night and thought that the nurse call button was the way to change the tv stations...so every few minutes i'd hear the nurse say " can I help you" ...all night long!
So needless to say when the pain meds made me nauseated, then the lack of sleep, and the pain being out of control and then them telling me they are gonna keep me another night! OMG...with the crazy lady...are you kidding? WHY ME?? WHAT DID I DO??? It's funny now, but then I was so freakin' mad!
I rememeber being extreamly dry mouthed..and all I wanted was a freakin popsicle...something cold that would wet my mouth better than a sip from a medicine cup! Guess what! The hospital doesn't have sugar free popsicles!!! WHT? They are a center for bariatric excellence and they don't have sugar free popsicles for their bariatric patients! I must have asked every new nurse, can I get a sugar free popsicle! I stuck out every time! I remember my DH coming down to visit me and bringing in his shiny silver thermos..and I thought ???? what is that for? He smiles and says...I brought you a present! YAYYYY present...in a thermos???
He slowly opens the thermos reaches his hand in and pulls out one beautiful, precious, yummy, delicious, cold, sugar free popsicle!
I have never been sooooo excited to see a popsicle in my life! It was like the "best present" under the christmas tree that you can't wait to open!
I was so exstatic! How thoughtful...it's the simple little things and the details that make me love him so much! 20 years later and he still wow's me!
Coming home..I had one mission...and one mission only! Get to the shower as fast as possibe! I have to say that was the best shower! Ahhhhh then top it off with getting to sleep in your own bed next to your DH...
It's now Tues. and I'm feeling much better today! Gas pain in my neck mainly and I can't lie on my side but I'm up moving sipping and trying to entertain myself!
I find myself counting down the days until I can have some sort of real food! Just a bite of cottage cheese! A scrambled egg...I'm not tummy hungry, I'm head hungry and I am missing my food! I didn't realize how much I use food! The first thing I did when I got home from the hospital was to look for something to eat to make me feel better! I opted for a hot shower...
Tomorrow I will go and get blood work done and next week will be staples out! YAYYY I can't wait
Bowel Prep Day
Feb 11, 2009
It's already 6pm and I am only hours away from my big day! Yayyyyy
UC Davis called and said my check in is 10:30am and Surgery is at 1:30pm!
Say a prayer!!!
Saying Goodbye
Feb 10, 2009
Next time he sees me, I will look like a different girl! I can't wait to see his reaction! Next time I see him, he will be a year older, and changed too!
clear liquid day
Feb 10, 2009
Today was also my last day of work. It was exciting because it was one more step in the right direction and sad because I am leaving for a while. I LOVE my job, my clients and the girls I work with, so being home and away will be an adjustment!
Tomorrow will be another day of clear liquids...I can do that! and bowel prep.I can do that too!!!
I am right there and can almost taste that success!!! Surgery is right there around the corner!
I am washing my blankie that Becky made me, also my robe! I will also pack my hospital stuff so It's ready and double check that I have what I need for my first post op week! I'm gonna make a list, and get everything in order, make a run to wal-mart and then it's home by 10am to start my first fantastic drink of "golightly"
Focus on whats right in front of you!
Don't forget the carmex!
