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I am still thinking about having the surgery and finding out that the few people I am telling are very supportive. I don't want to have it go around that I am thinking about having the surgery but I truely am. I want to lose this weight so bad I can taste it....Ok maybe a bad analogy but that is how I am feeling. I am trying to do it the healthy way but the weight is just not coming off like I feel it should be. I am eating right most of the time and only treating myself once in a while. I did good last night at not buying myself candy from the gas station. Which I hate to admit that I did the last two times I was there (other than last night) and I ate it all by myself too. I would not even share with my kids...what kind of mom does that? I felt like it was my treat to myself and I deserved it for being so good about not getting so stressed out. If anyone is reading this and has suggestions for me please let me know.

I have a goal of working out for 15 min three days a week and that is just a start for me...a jumping off point if you will. But I can't seem to get myself off the couch and doing it. I am so tired by the time I get home that I can imagine doing any kind of work out. I try every morning to get out of bed earlier and get some type of exercise in but I just can't seem to do that either. So again any help on any of these subjects would be appreachated.

~Me~

I am sitting at work thinking about the options and wanting to know what is right for me. I have heard of people not losing weight or having side effects that caused them to lose there job. I can't afford to lose my job over this but I don't want to be known as the "fat mom" at my childrens school. Maybe I am not trying hard enough to lose the weight...exercise is a battle for me. Taking the stairs wears me out and I start to breath heavier. This was never a problem for me 70 lbs ago. I can't believe I have let myself get to over 270 pounds...I got down to 269 for about a week and now I am back up to 271. I watch the Biggest Loser and think "Wow if those people can do it so can I" I know it won't be as fast as they do it but I want to lose this weight. When my GP brought this up to me I know he is only looking out for me. I feel like I have info about the surgery and I have even read a book about the lap-band surgery. I just don't want people to know that I am thinking about it since it is such a personal thing. I guess I should rephrase that...I don't want people at work to know I am thinking about it. My family does not seem so supportive of me getting the surgery either...well my parents don't seem supportive I should say. Then again then don't seem supportive of the meds I am on right now either. They think I am insulin resistant and have me on meds for it. I had my GP do a diabetes test on me and I am waitiing for the results of that to come back so that I know if that is another block in my way. I am just so scared of not losing this weight it is keeping me back from all the things that I could be doing. I just want to cry right now and do what is best for me and I don't know what is right for me at this time. I am hoping to find out more here and get the answers that I am looking for.