Michelle, I do not know what you are going thru and even when I have the surgery on 5/1 I will not know exactly what is happening with you. I do know why you had it done.. I want to tell you something that happened to me today. I was in the grocery store with my husband getting things I will need for after the op. I had just gone thru the register, again, with my husband. He was paying for the groceries and I had gone to the exit door. I was politely waiting for an older man to go before me, I thought it was his wife who I had just let go ahead of me. He looked at me and said "go ahead, you're bigger than I am". The woman looked at me and I looked at him like I could not believe what I had just heard. I said "thats rude". The woman looked at me and then him and said "that is awful" and then went thru the door. He followed her and he went one way and she another, they were not together afterall. As I followed him out I said to him "I am smarter than you also!" Thats when my husband showed up and the man just kept on walking out the door like nothing was happening. Needless to say, I was every emotion you could think of. Mostly though I said to myself, I am having this operation and if I do not come thru it will be alright because I am tired of this life. STAY WITH IT MICHELLE, PLEASE. Only you can decide, but I am sure the disadvantages now will be far out numbered by the advantages later. Love be with you.