mnjellybean
Wow this is my story.......
I grew up in a family that liked to eat!!! They were also very active, they were a working family. My grandparents had a farm and my aunts and uncles played all the sports so we were always very active. As a child I was chubby but I never let that stop me from doing what I wanted. I went swimming, played with all the kids went hiking with friends, climbed rocks and just whatever. I was a country girl so there really wasn't that many kids around, so the kids that were around we all just got along. Than my parents decided to move to town, closer to work I guess. That was the first time I was ever called FAT. I shrugged it off as just a dumb boy but it stuck with me through every thing I did. I still played sports but stopped doing some things that would make me look or act like a FAT KID.
In high school i failed gym and swimming because there was no way in hell that i was going to let boys see me in a swimming suit. So I made up every excuse there was to not have to get in that pool. Deep down inside I loved to swim, I still do to this day. I also hid myself behind baggy cloths and huge sweatshirts. I made myself look bigger than what I really was. My poor mom had no idea what was going on, she tried to help but I just pushed her away.
Finally I met a boy who liked me for me and we dated for a really long time. Than when we were 20 and 21 we got married. I was so happy that he accepted me that I really didn't care anymore what I looked like or even how much I weighted. Guess I kinda let myself go. Two years later we were divorced and I got very depressed. I moved back to my parents house and didn't leave their house for 5 months. I wasn't eating either because I developed sever anxity about everything! Having to leave the house and maybe see him would put me in a panic so bad that I was throwing up before I got in the car. My mom would force me to go outside. My dad would call my old friends to call me and ask me to do things. most of the time I would make up some excuse not to go.
Than one day I just went. I went out and meet up with some old friends and it was all down hill from there. I had lost 70lbs, no one had seen me in almost 3 yrs and now I was single and ready to party. AND I DID!!!!!!!!!
I got pregnant and had a bueatiful little girl who saved my life in more ways than one!!!!! But my weight was now a problem again, I was up to 320lbs and I didn't know what to do. I dieted and exercised but just couldn't seem to get the weight off. I had looked into weight lose surgery before but now it was different, I was determined to actually do something about my weight instead of just always talking about starting a new day and starting a new life style with healthy food and all that bull that you try to make your self believe. I wanted a real change and I wanted it to last a lifetime and I wanted my LIFE back!!! It was time. So I did all my research, went to the groups and seen the doctors and diet doctors and the tests and the planning and everything. Now it is October 18th 2007 a little over 6 months since I had the RuenY surgery (spelled wrong) and I feel amazing with how my weight lose is going. I still have alot of questions and still do research all the time just to make sure that I am where I am suppose to be.
Wow that was a mouth full..... I am really excited to meet new people and help them in any way that I can.
