mrs_tomahawk
The time just keeps flying.......
Apr 29, 2008
For starters I got back from my cruise 6 pounds lighter! LOL. We had a blast and I can't wait until we go again. (We are going to Walt Disney World next but that will be in a few years) At the moment we are trying to get on the biggest E-ticket rides out there : PARENTHOOD!!!!!
Its been about 5 months since we started trying....... We pray that the Good Lord will bless us soon. For anyone out there who is reading this please say a quick prayer for us. Thank you.I have offically lost 106 ponds and have never felt better! I love my new body! (the clothed parts that is) I feel so alive and free. I can walk into any store and feel like people are looking at me. When I go out to eat I worry about what people will think when I DON'T finish my plate rather then the other way around. LOL. I have come to realize that people will judge you no matter what it is just our nature. We all do it. We all look someone and judge them in some way. It doesn't matter if you are fat or thin, tall or short, male or female etc........ I have come to accept this and that has been a huge step for me. I don't really care what people think. In the begaining I would tell anyone who asked that I had surgery and now I really don't enjoy haveing to explaining it people. I lost weight, I don't eat as much as I use to...... DEAL WITH IT.......I MADE THE CHOICE NOT YOU. YOU DON'T HAVE TO LIVE MY LIFE!!!!!!
Now that that is off my chest..... LOL. We are moving at the end of May and this will be a whole new start for us. I can move on from this chapter and live the life I have always ment to live. Don't get me wrong I have no regrets. I would do it all over in a heartbeat. I just think being in a new town will help me look beyond "post-op"
Well....... I think you are for the most part caught up. LOL. I must be off to go pack. (3 weeks and nothing packed?! Wish me luck!)
Have a good one you all........
Until next time,
ness
PS
Dec 02, 2007
Has it been 6 months already?!?!?!
Dec 02, 2007
I can't believe that December is upon us already. I can't seem to grasp that just a few short months ago I was about 250 pounds and my BMI was 41. Now, here I am sitting at 162 with a BMI of 27. I went from a tight size 20 to a nicely fitting 10. I think I would be able to fit into a 8 but my tummy is too "big" . I have never been happier. I went to the dr.s last week and they had only good things to tell me. They also said it was ok to start thinking about trying to have a baby. We'll see..........
OH!!!! I am so excited to report we are getting ready to set sail !!!!!!! Screw the snow and 30's..... Bring on the plam trees and warm water!!!!!! So as I am starting to pack I realized that me putting off buy an evil swimsuit was not the best idea. (like I had any clue what my size would be) I went from store to store trying to find one that is whole and fits ( and at this point has some magical powers to make those icky rolls disappear) So after weeks of dispare and no luck I found one!!! It fits perfectly and looks pretty good. Want to know where I found it? ......... come on ........take a guess ....... No?.......... No takers?......... ok I will tell you.........
IN MY LAUNDRY BASKET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Guess it helps to wash your laundry every once in awhile. LOL. Well, kiddies I must be off. I hear the bed calling me........
"Help me !!! Get all these suitcases and clothes off!!!!" LOL
Nighty Night!!!!!
TTFN ~ Janessa
Another month by and another 15 pounds lost
Nov 14, 2007
In other news Hubby and I are doing great! There are some "issues" but that is ti be expected. My weight loss is doing great. I am down another 15 pounds this month which puts me at 83 all together. I am currently in a size 10/12 and M top. I still have some things to work on and eatting is a daily learning process for me.
I have also been feeling down about my tummy and loseing my hair. I know that both over time things will get better and that this is only the first 6 months of my new life. I don't know....... I think the fact that I feel great and it dosen't show on the outside how great I look and feel brings me down. The good news is that my "bad" days are alot fewer then they used to be.
Thats about all I have to say... Oh hubby and I are going to go get pictures done. I am looking forward to taking them. Its been about 5 years since we did it last so it is time. Off to make dinner. Have a good night other whoever is reading this.
TTFN
Its been a long month.............
Oct 11, 2007
TTFN
~*~Ness~*~
The end is just a few hours away..............
Sep 10, 2007
OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! Is it all really almost over??? Can it be true? I am in shock with tears rolling down my face. I have been crying for the last half hour. Why you ask? He is coming home. Just one simple sentance.... He is coming home. The words repeat over and over in my mind. My heart is beating faster and faster...... the butterflies apear and this feeling of excitment/fear sets in. What if he doesn't see a change? What if he takes one look and says" I came home for this?! HA! Bye bye" I am so scared of his reaction to the new me. Yes, I know that he loves me blah blah blah but I still need his "approvel". I need him to look at me and say "Welcome back, I've missed the woman I fell in love with". I need him to see the change for the good. No, I did not do this for him. I did this for me and part of me wanted to save a marriage slowing driffting apart due to lack of self esstem. I know tomorrow will be a good day. A day filled with happy tears, butterflies, and nervous laughter. This is not my first redeployment. But this is the first time I have held my promise to lose weight by the time he comes home and keep it off. I think part of the fear is slipping back into old habits once he is home as well. I have always lost weight before he came home (not this much!) but I have always gained it right back within a few months and then some. We eat. That is what we do on a friday night; a trip to Applebees then coldstones. I think we would go there at least 3 times a month. What if he can't adapt to this new me? This low sugar, np fast food, no soda, bird size portions me? I always knew that we would need to look at our date nights differently but it didn't hit me until I saw the other half of his company's homecoming on TV ( that was tonight BTW) Yeah we can still go out but I am sure he will get sick of it when he sees the bills and the leftovers. Don't get me wrong I am totally excited to be standing in that gym with 300 other wives looking for our husbands all wearing the same thing. That is the best part out of this whole "army" thing. THE REUNION.
*Sigh* Well the tears are dried and the butterflies are slowly fadeing..... I think I am going to go pick up the bedroom and try and get some sleep. Thank you out there in cyber world for listening to my little freak out. I know things will turn out ok. But we all have to have a melt down before we realize that LOL
TTFN
Is it September already?
Sep 03, 2007
How the time flys when you're throwing up
Aug 03, 2007
In other news I got on the scale yesterday and could not stop the tears.
202!!!! That is a grand total of 48 lbs!! In 6 weeks! I am shocked!!!! This has been such a week...... such a month!!! and its only the 3rd! And the best is yet to come............drum roll please......
I put on a pair of size 14 jeans and they...........BUTTONED!!!!!!!!!
THATS RIGHT!!! THEYFIT!!!!!! Ok so there was some "spillage" if you will but and thats a big but they will be to big in a few weeks so HA! Oh yeah! one more thing!
MY HUBBY COMES HOME NEXT MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well, thats it for today off for a morning walk!
Have a good one!
HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jun 25, 2007
So, here I am 5 days post-op and wish I was doing a little better. I have a hard time adjusting to how much I should be eatting. For the most part I just haven't been eatting. There is really no desire, and I am not keeping track of how much I am taking in. I think that I am doing better. One big surprise was ending up in the hospital the day after I was released because dehydration. I have to stay on top of my water! It seems that I dry heave after taking a sip of water not any other kind of liquid. I meet with my surgeon tomorrow so I will talk to him about that. Well, I can feel that it is time for the happy juice.
TTFN
Help!?
Jun 12, 2007
I am freaking out right now! It is still unreal to me.........I am having surgery next week!!!! I went in to see Dr. Martin to see what the next step was and I guess this was it. LOL. I was expecting a date but not for next week and that was my second choice! He asked me if I was ready to go on Friday! *sigh* I am so tired..........It was one of the longest days of my life! I was sent off to pre-op before I was aware of what had just happened. Like I said I am still in shock. This has happened all so fast. I have only started looking into surgery in March! Well, there is so much to do i have to get some sleep so I will be well rested for my chem final. Well, this might be my last post until I am on the "Loser bench" Wish me luck out there! ~ TTFN~
