nan41
I pro bally should have written this a year ago, but was afraid. I am from Ottawa, born and raised. I have been big all my life. It never really bothered me until I went to grade 7 and there was a boy there who would call me names every day. I remember going home and feeling so bad and wanting my mom to fix it, but she could not, and I did not understand that as she was always fixing thong for me. She told me to not listen to him, which did not help. I always stay to myself, did not have lots of friends and I had to start to lose some weight when I was 16 but then a guy I really like end up leaving and I never saw him again and he was never mean to me, he even say he loved me, but it did not work for us, so when he left , I gave up on myself I started to eat what every I wanted and got so big. Then I met another guy when I was 18 and I fell in love with him and lost some weight again but he broke my heart. I end up having a child at 25 and he saved my life.
I love my son so much, before that I did not really care about much, and not my self. But when I got pg I also got Diabetic and it never went away. Even thou I loved my son I still was not really taking care of my son. His farther left us (the same guy who I feel in love with at 18). So I was hurting for a long time. Never watched what I ate and my sugars were always high. I end up spending 3 yrs in a wheelchair because of a foot ulster and now I have gone blind in one eye. You hear these thing bur do not believe they will happen to you.
Now I have had the surgery and am trying to get back on track. One day at a time.
