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I am trying to be faithful to myself in terms of what I should be eating and exercise and sometimes I feel like I am failing. I am trying, but seriously and honestly, I do not think I am doing enough. This past Friday at work we had a party for a colleague that is leaving our dept at the hospital and they had an overabundance of goodies (donuts, cake, chips and all the bad stuff we need to get away from). I have to say I did well and was able to stay away from most of it. Though I did have a chocolate munchkin (yes only 1) and a small taste (not even a sliver) of chocolate cake. Damn it, I had my period - chocolate makes me soo happy!! I also had a bite of my SO oreo cookie ice cream cone - OMG!! I could have swallowed it whole. So yesterday I had sugar cravings all day long. Serves me right cause I should know better.  I ended eating more than I should have yesterday. We went to KFC and we got the grilled chicken and i had two pieces of that, corn on the cob and one biscuit (both with butter). So I just calculated my meal from last night and its over 500 calories! Ewwwww. Not good. Thankfully, this is not something I do usually. I need to have better restraint though. I was not happy last night after eating.  

Actually, I was not happy yesterday at all. My day started with me going over to Bally's to start my free trial week and supposedly meeting with a trainer and was basically "cocked-blocked" by one of the guys there when they found out that I had previously been a member 4 years ago. UGH! So all I got was a tour and a send off. Now I have to start over. I am still probably going to end up there anyway. I have a Curves by me about a mile away, but I get home after 6:30 pm at night that it would be difficult for me to go after work and they are not open on Sundays, which would be my plan to work-out Friday-Sunday and maybe even an occasional weekday like Monday's since I don't do transcription on Monday nights. UGH!!! I have research area gyms again. There is also a Lucille Roberts on the same block as the Port Authority bus terminal on 42nd and that may be a possibility too, if I can swing the membership fee. I might stop there on Monday night after work and check it out. 

All this week I felt totally awful because of my TOM. I didn't walk my 30 NYC blocks at all this week because of constant rainy weather and my lack of better planning. And yet despite all of this,  I checked the scale yesterday and today have am down another 2lbs since Friday!  I am down to 216 lbs.  I love my band! Cause I know that without it, I would have gained and felt even more miserable than I have during this past week. I am so hoping that I can be in "onderland" by my 4th month anniversary which 7/18. I have another fill on 6/22 which will be my 3rd fill. I am hoping this one will give me more restriction, cause I really do not feel much restriction now. 

For this week, I am considering doing the 5 day pouch test to boost my metabolism and get me losing a little faster. ALSO, to curb my carb addiction. I was really feeling it this week. I have to run the grocery store and stock up on the stuff I am going to need for it. I want to be prepared like I was prior to my surgery.  I was plateaued though for about 2 weeks on 219, I definitely do not want to plateau again for any amount of time if can help it. You gotta work that band, its a tool not an "easy way out"! As the cliche goes - you only get out of it, which you put into it!!! 

Well its been 11 days since my sprain and I have not been able to do my morning walks. I went back to work this past Monday and have been taking the train back and forth to Port Authority. Its been raining for most of this week and it's humid out. I am hoping for better weather next week cause I need to start walking again. My ankle is not bothering me as much and I need to do this. I have scheduled my next fill for 5/22 cause I am eating between meals. I am also PMsing which does not help. I also need to start drinking more water. I know this will help me, but I hate drinking water. I have gained 1 lb. I am not sure if this is from water weight prior to my TOM or if its weight gain from in-between snacking. UGH! I know we are not talking loads of weight, but I have been doing well and do not want to go on a backward spiral. I have a wedding on 5/23 and I want to buy a new outfit for that. I am hoping to at least lose another 5 lbs at least by then. UGH! Oh well. I will keep plugging along. I am NOT  going to quit. I have invested way too much energy, time, money and hopes for me to do that.