rickysmama
Where do I start? I've always been the fat girl. Elementary through High School and into adulthood. I did the optifast lost 40 lbs only to gain it all back. I started running with an exboyfriend of mine lost 60 lbs only to gain all plus more when we broke up. My parents are heavy, growing up my sister didn't have a weight problem she would always walk past me and rub her flat stomach. 2 kids later she does have a weight problem but says its baby weight (kids are 11 and 8).
I never let my weight hold me back from anything. I was a princess on the sweethearts court in high school, I played basket ball and I consider myself to semi popular back then.
Since I've put back on all this weight I've kind of gone into hiding. I don't want to do anything but lay in the house and sleep. Part of it could be that I lost my mom and my dog last year, but majority is because my body hurts and I'm tired of it hurting all the time. I don't sleep well because my hips hurt, when I get up to walk I'm walking around like an old lady trying to get my body moving again.
I'm hoping this surgery will be the tool that I need to get my life back on track to find that happy, fun, person I use to be. I want to be able celebrate my 40th birthday next year in a little black dress. I want to find someone to love me for me not what I look like but for the raunchy, dirty talking girl I am. LOL
