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I look at old pictures and I think, "Who is that?"  I don't even look like myself anymore.

I was a size 24... now I'm a 12.
I was a 42C.... now I'm a 38D (yeah I don't know how that works LOL)
I was 281 lbs... now I'm 185lbs.

I will be posting the scary BEFORE and AFTER pictures very soon.  Those are the ones where I'm standing in my bra and panties.... SCARY!

The coolest thing?  I've still got another 55 lbs to lose!  I don't think I want to stay at 130... I think I'd be happy at 150 or so.  I just want to get to 130 so I can say I've been there.

Today was a real eye opener for me... I haven't been getting nearly enough protein in my diet.  I've always been more of a veggies gal, so instead of eating my chicken at dinner first (like a good girl), I eat my veggies first, and then I have no room left over for the chicken.  Not to mention I haven't been drinking my protein shakes.  They make me gag, and I don't know why!  They taste ok, and the texture is good!

So yeah... the eye opener:

I've always been a pretty physically strong person.... lifting heavy stuff was never a big deal.  Today, I went to get some water from the Sparklett's water cooler.  The bottle was empty, so I thought I'd change the water bottle.  These are the big 5 gallon bottles that weigh upwards of 50 lbs.  I picked that thing up and nearly dropped it!  I did manage to get the damn thing on the cooler without spilling anything, but jeesus!  And afterwards my arms were all shaky and I thought I might pass out.  I couldn't believe it... I felt so weak :(

I promise I'll eat my protein like a good girl!  And my apartment complex just got a bunch of new gym equiptment, so I can't wait to check it out.

ps... I'm down to 228!

Tomorrow is my one week post-op anniversary.  Thought I'd write a little update.

I hated the hospital.  The nurses were wonderful, and the facilities were fantastic, but I hated every minute of it.  Before the surgery (because I wasn't able to have any water for over 12 hours) they had a hard time establishing an IV line.  They poked me 5 times.  It hurt like a bitch, and I have huge bruises on my arms.  It wasn't due to lack of skill of my nurses', it's just cause I have bad veins.

I was fine for the first night because I was on morphine, but around 3am and every hour or so after that, my fricken IV machine would beep.  Once it was out of morphine, once it was out of juice, once I accidently kinked the line while sleeping.... it was horrible and I couldn't sleep!

But the rest of the day was miserable.  They gave me Reglan for nausea, which made my mind start racing with bad thoughts... I was anxious and felt very sad.  After the second dose, I refused to take it any more.  It was horrible.

And the massage stockings didn't help either.  It felt like I was chained to the bed.  I didn't want to wear them, but I knew how important they were.

Anyway, they discharged me on Sunday.  I was glad to be home, and I'm feeling much better.  I had my first follow-up appointment today.  I'm down to 256!  So I've lost a total of 25 lbs so far!

I had my last pre-op appointment today!  I actually lost 11 lbs., which is totally sweet!  So now I'm down to 270.  Dr. Suh was pleased with that.

I also registered at Inland Valley.  That place is a BITCH for parking!  They're doing a ton of construction, so it's very crowded.  But it was a nice facility.  I wished they would have shown me the bariatric floor, but everyone seemed kinda rushed, so I ddin't bother asking.  I got my incentive spirometer.  The guy who showed me how to use it was impressed how far I could move the little thingy, so he raised the standards for me LOL

I got  a camera at Wal-Mart to document my progress.  I really need a digital...  I also got some pillows for sleeping.  I'm hoping I can get back to sleeping on my tummy ASAP.  I'm a tummy sleeper 100% of the time...

I wish I didn't have to go to work for the next few days.  It's so damn miserable....

I am thrilled and scared and excited and nervous all at the same time!!  Is that possible? LOL

My surgery is November 14, 2008.  My biggest concern between now and then is getting sick before my surgery.  I had to cancel our annual camping trip in California City this weekend because it's just too cold.  Nate's bummed... and so am I.  But we would be even more upset if I had to reschedule because I got sick.