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I am 43 years old and feel that plus a few. My knees are going bad. I notice the circualtion in my legs slowing.....thank you to diabetes. I am a nurse so i know how and why and all those things but I have been MORBIDLY obese for over 15 years. You see different types of discrimination around but funny how little fat discrimination is talked about. So basically even though here I am 43, two great kids, married 24 years recieved my BSN in December, and this weight seems to make me feel like a failure. I do think I have pretty good self esteem other than feeling invisable.
I have PCOD, diagnosed at 17 but I was thin and active at that time. I had my first child, a beatiful redheaded girl at the age of 20. Gained 50 lb lost 20, put me at 180. My handsome blonde boy came at age 23, Gained 40 lb lost 10 after all was said and done. Gained even more when breeastfeeding and beyond. Highest weight 295. Current 285. (funny thing, ever notice the Feudian slip of putting a 1 in front of the weight instead of a 2?) Anyway.....I have looked at bariatric surgery for about 15 years. researched it alot for 5, made a appointment 2 years ago and canceled, have one in September that I will keep. I have tried almost every diet I thought was viable and few that I didnt. Tried phen/phin, hey really liked phentermine......but heart didnt.(legal speed) Lost 60 pounds on Adkins in less than 6 months but gained it all back. Not all bad, I learned alot about carbs. And here I am with Diabetes diagnosed 3 years ago, sugar problems all my life though, Knees going bad, 12 years of High blood pressure medication, just learned that the embarassing bladder contol problem may be weight related, GERD for 12 years. So I guess these are all reasons my insurance wont deny me though......(try to see the good:))
I am glad to finally be this close and look forward to charting my journey with all you folks.
(love the smileys)
Sooo, fast forward a few years..... actually my doc denied me , I have Barretts syndrom that is related to GERD. it is now a few years later and I am seeing Dr.Tillquist in Denver and he says the surgery will help the Barretts syndrome as it will relieve the GERD. So here I am again. Hoping surgery date is July the 19th, not set yet but hoping hard. I am waiting for insurance approval as first time my psychologist decided I need lots of help...$$ before I could have the surgery. Found a new psychologist and he says I am fine....I knew that already...any way here I go again..Wish I had done it 15 years ago. Oh well I am who I am today. I hope to keep progress posted.
I am a nurse for 17 years so you would think I would know better but hey, I see alot of nurses on these blogs... so must not just be me.
