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Today is a very big day for me it is my two year anniversary of my gastric bypass surgery.  I've been through more in this past two years than I've been through throughout my entire life.  I'm lost all of my sorority friends including my two best friends, I almost got divorced, I have splurged way too much on clothing and other unnecessary items that have caused me to tremendous financial issues, I've almost lost my job over my own stupidity, and I'm not speaking to half of my father's side of my family.  The good news is that I've done a lot of self-discovery and this is what I've figured out.  I'm always going to be Danielle no matter what I weigh.  I love my personality and although I may piss people off and although I often put my foot in my mouth you have to take me with a grain of salt because it's just who I am!  I can be sexy and I will enjoy this new found sexiness whether my husband likes it or not!  I need true friends who are not jealous of my new body.  I need friends that love me for me and not because "misery loves company".  In other words most of my best friends just hung out with me because I was "big" like them and they felt comfortable about me because of my weight.  We could joke about being fat, buy fat girl clothes, talk about skinny girls, gorge on fast food, and complain about everything in life.  Now I do none of that!  I'm more positive and I look forward to tomorrow.  I've also realized that no one will every be completely happy with their body!  I still pick out my flaws every morning in the mirror!  Love for who you are is not whether or not you love what you see in the mirror it is what you feel inside your heart.  I can honestly say I don't love myself yet but I'm very close.  I'm working hard at correcting all of my mental problems including needing negative and positive attention and believing in myself!  I still have a very long way to go but at least I'm finally on the right track!  I know there are a lot of people out there who are trying to bring me down but I'm going to ignore them and just keep moving up.  I'm going to church this Sunday for the first time in years!  I'm ready to bring God back into my life now and I'm ready to help my husband with his issues as well.  Keep me in your thoughts and prayers.  Also, pray that I am okayed for my tummy tuck and breast lift and reconstruction.  I turned in the paper work last month and we are awaiting an answer from the insurance company now.  I have now lost a total of 214 lbs.  I am a size 10 and super happy that I can buy clothes at Express in the mall! LOL

Love you all!!!
Danielle

I honestly did not think this surgery was going to change me this much!  I've lost 167 lbs in one year and three months.  I went from a size 26/28 to a size 12.  I'm still loosing!  I have 22 lbs to loose to reach my goal of 175 lbs.  I've had to spend a fortune on all new clothes every couple of weeks!  I have tons of new energy but a lot of metal issues.  Loosing this weight only brought all of my problems that I was coving up with food to the surface!  So now I'm dealing with a lot of financial issues, mental issues, and my husband and I are going through a divorce!  We are still great friends and we are not bitter at all.  We just realized that we both have changed dramatically.  I have realized that I need more in life and he has realized that I've turned into a butterfly and I just can't be stopped right now.  I'm very thrilled with the new me.  My only issues are: my thin hair, my droopy boobies (i'm having a breast reduction and lift next month), and my flabby tummy and arms.  I guess my body could be in worse shape.  I've seen pics of older people who loose this much and their skin is horrible!  Luckily I've been blessed through this process and I've really had no major problems.  I just can't wait to go back and see Dr. Sonnanstine when I reach my goal weight.  I haven't seen him since June and he told me to come back in August and be under 220.  I'm now 197 but I'm going to surprise him and come back at goal (175)!  And if anyone is wondering yes I would get this surgery again tomorrow if I had to!  This has been the best decision I have ever made.  I've been through a journey of self-discovery and it has been stressful and painful but I'm sure in the end all of these events will mold me into the woman I was suppose to be!  God Bless and enjoy the holidays...I'm not decorating this year because of the divorce so things are going to be a little stressful! 

LOVE YOU ALL!!!

Danielle

Is it just me or has this year totally sucked?  I've been extremely depressed...primarily because of finances!  I spent way too much money on Christmas and I've been paying for it since then!  We are still not caught up in our finances and I owe EVERYONE money!  I can't wait to finally be caught up in bills!!  I remember when I first went in for surgery they said that if my love life was bad before surgery then surgery wouldn't help it...and the same goes with finances!  Unfortunantly, I've started filling my "void" with shopping instead of food!  I've tore up every credit card and debit card!  I just can't control the spending lately...and it is little things!  I will go out and pick up my nephew and spend $40.00 on him in just one weekend...even when I know that I don't have the money!  Once I control my finances my life will be perfect.  I've lost 118 lbs and Dr. Sonnanstine said he wanted me to lose 70 more by my one year in August!  That will put me down to 170 lbs!  I'm thrilled with my new body, my relationship, my family, my career, and my life in general....besides my finances my life is pretty much perfect!  I hope everyone else is having a better year than me!  Keep in touch and keep me in your prayers!

Danielle

Well this month has been crazy!  Lots of stress and trouble with crazy teachers!  The good news is that I've lost 104 lbs since August 20th!!!!!!!  I'm sooooo excited!  I'll be posting new pics soon.  I been having some bowel problems/constipation but other than that I'm doing great!  Keep me in your prayers!

Danielle

As of this morning I've lost 80 lbs!  I have new before and after pictures.  The pic of me in black was actually taken on November 5th!  I've lost about 15-20 lbs since then!  I feel great....I'm eating anything except meats and in extremely small portions still...which is great!  I'm soooo happy I've had this surgery.  If you would have asked me that three months ago I would have told you that I made a mistake!  I feel great, I look great, I am great!!!!!

Thanks for everyone's thoughts and prayers!

Danielle

So far so good!  I have been eating solids and keeping everything down.  I can only eat pastas, sauces, soups, and some small amounts of bread.  I'm eating things like lasagna, mac and cheese, bagel bites, ravioli, and cereal.  I feel great and I have all of a sudden found a huge burst of energy.  My house is clean, I don't feel like I need as much sleep as before and I'm very positive and optimistic...even though financial things are messy...Christmas time!  Hopefully things will continue to look up and I will continue to loose.  My pants have been falling off of me lately and I love the way my face is starting to take shape....no more double chins!  I hope everyone had a happy Thanksgiving!  Christmas is officially in 29 days!

Love you all!
Danielle

 I can't believe that I haven't posted since October 30th!  Time is flying by.  I have certainly had some tough times.  The medical bills keep pouring in!  It seems like once a week I get a new bill from someone.  I think I owe about $3000 right now in medical bills!  I wish I could make one big bill out of all of them and pay it once a month.  Other than that I've caught every cold and virus possible.  Two weekends ago I almost went to the ER because I was so sick from a virus.  I didn't eat for three days!  I've also been on tons of cough medicine for a serious cold.  I'm totally over the virus but the cold is still working its way out of my body.  Last night I ate a piece of meat for the first time in two months.  It felt sooo good.  I cooked a piece of skinless boneless chicken breast and dipped it in barbeque sauce.  It was the best taste I had ever tasted!  I can't wait until Thanksgiving break so I can try to eat some turkey and gravy and mac and cheese.  My family is also taking family pics this Wednesday night so I'm super excited about the way my new body looks!  Please continue to keep me in your thoughts and prayers!

Happy Thanksgiving!
Danielle

Currently I'm extremely stressed.  I love life and I don't know what to do with all of this joy about my weight loss but I'm still extremely stressed about finances, my husband's current job situation, and little things here at work.  I'm also putting a lot of things off like EXERCISE!!!!!!!!  I need to give myself a kick in the rear end and start being motivated to improve other areas of my life!  Is anyone else feeling the same way?  Thanks for everyone's thoughts and prayers throughout this process!

Dee

Actually everything is great! I'm really excited about hitting the 60 lb mark!  My goal was to loose 60 lbs by my two month mark which will be this weekend October 20th!  I've lost 57 lbs thus far.  I love halloween so I'm really pumped about decorating my yard.  I have my college homecoming this weekend so I'm super pumped about this.  I am actually starting to appreciate life and not look forward to food!  Please continue to keep me in your prayers!

Danielle

Okay to make a really long story short I'm at home and alive!  I survived the procedure and I feel 100% better!  I went in to have my procedure on Thursday and after a 2 1/2 hour wait in the lobby I was finally brought back.  They missed my veins five times!  They couldn’t get me to sleep so I ended up punching two nurses who were trying to get the scope down my throat!  I woke up pissed that they hadn't completed the surgery after all of my troubles so they decided to admit me to the hospital and try again in the morning.  Last night I stayed in a room with a 79 year old woman who pooped and pissed the bed full...which I must admit I almost puked everywhere from the smell at 2 am this morning!  She also coughed up film and puked all night in a bucket by my bed...remember puke can smell just as bad as poop and pee!  Then at 4 am she decided she wanted to watch TV with the lights on!  So to say the least my experience at University Hospital was an adventure!  Luckily, they came and picked me up at around 10 am and brought me back for a second attempt.  This time they called in an anestheticsiologist (sp)!  I was fast asleep in no time and woke up feeling peaceful but in a lot of pain in recovery!  80% of the people who have this procedure do not need it ever again and heal terrifically, but there is also 20% who need to have the procedure over again because it didn't work the last time!  Say a prayer that it worked!

Love you all...thanks for all of your prayers!
Dee