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Today, I am embarking on a 2 day spiritual fast. I have never fasted before for that reason. Of course, I fasted prior to my surgery and afterwards, but that was not to get closer to GOD. This fast is two get closer to GOD. I am excited and scared all at once. I pray that I have the self-discipline to stick to it. Due to my nutritional needs as a bariatric patient, I will be having 2 protein shakes a day, but I will not have any foods that I can chew. So I will be drinking water, green tea, and broths today and tomorrow and praying. Here we go....

Hello, everyone it is has been awhile since I have posted anything. I went through a rough patch, but by the grace of God I came through. I graduated last December with my masters in Education and Principal certification. Unfortunately, I have not been able to find a job in administration. I am thankful to still have my teaching positions. I was extremely unhappy last year (school year) and of course my eating got the best of me. I regained 20lbs. I was not where I wanted to be professionally or personally and I just stopped caring. I prayed to God for guidance and direction and when I started to listen things begin to become clearer.

I restarted the prayer group at work and that has helped me stay positive about where I am professionally. My department is expanding next year; something I have been working towards for 6 years. I am returning to school in the Spring to work on a master degree in Criminal Justice. My ultimate educational goal is to get a doctoral degree or a law degree.

Personally, I am looking into foster/adoption. I have a strong desire to be a mother and I have been unlucky in love. I have never been one to allow my goals to be dependent on someone else. So I am continuing on with my goal of motherhood alone. If love finds me along the way, then so be it.

I find that now that I have more clarity in the path my life is going that I have more control over my health. I have started exercising again and I am keeping up with what i am eating. I do not want to ruin the gift (pouch) I have been blessed with. Today I am fasting. Having protein shakes. I want to get closer to God and I want to get into better tune with my pouch. I choose today because it will be a challenge not to eat as I cook for the holiday. I will restrict myself to the little spoon to taste for seasonings; not the grazing I normally do. It will take much prayer and discipline. But I am going to lose this 15 lbs (already lost 5 of the 20 regained) and then continue on to my goal.

It has been a long time since I posted anything. I have been busy living life. I find myself getting out of the house more and being social. On June 18, I went to Houston to participate in a 2 mile charity beer run. It was so much fun. My team won 3rd place for team costume. I am still struggling with making better food choices, but I have come to the realization that I will probably always have this struggle.  I will always have to make conscious decisions about the food I put in my mouth. I guess in a way it is like how an alcholic must daily make the decision not to drink. I must daily make the decision to eat healthy and right.  Somedays are easier than others.

On a more positive note, my exercise schedule has improved greatly.  I get the the gym at least 3 times a week and most weeks it is 4 times.  I am hoping to workout 5 times a week now that school is out.  Professionally, things are going well. I will graduate in December with my master's degree and principal certification.  I hope to move to the Houston area after the completion of this upcoming school year.  Life is good!

Well, I did pretty good this week.  I lost my goal of 2lbs despite the fact that I was on period and craving carbs!  I did give in a little but not too much.  I did not exercise as much as I should have and I paid for it Saturday when I did my third 5K. It kicked my ass. I had the worse time ever. I am going to have to keep up my exercise routine. I need to hit the gym or track at least 3 times a week. Last week I just went to the track once.

Well, this week my goal is to lose another 2lbs.

Hola OH family, it has been awhile since I posted.  I have had a derailment on the weight loss track.  Old eating habits have returned and my weight loss has come to a stand still.  Thank GOD I have not gained anything, but I am not losing weight either.  I find myself snacking and drinking while I eat, not getting my protein in or taking my vitamins regularly.  I am deeply disappointed in my lack of stamina. I did what I was supposed to for 5 months and I have been off track for the past 2 months. I am beginning to see that this is truly a life long battle that I will have to fight for the rest of my life.  I have endured too much not to lose the weight I want to--need to lose.

So I am recommitting to the process today.  Food is no longer a source of entertainement for me, but a means to keep my body nurished.  I have to ensure that I am eating the right kinds of food and not just what tastes good to me.  I have to be mindful of everything I put in my body.  I have another 60lbs that I have to lose to reach my goal. I know that I can do it only if I work the tool that has been given to me. It is Sunday, the start of a new week and the restart to my new relationship with food. I am back on track.....

Greetings OH family! I am currently 4 months out from surgery and down 66lbs, 86lbs if you count the 20lbs I lost on my own before considering WLS.  Things are going great! I can now cross my legs when I sit down. I am wearing a 18W tops and 20 or 22 pants. Prior to having surgery I was wearing a size 28. At my heaviest I was wearing 30 or 32. I am even noticing that I am more physically fit at the gym.  I can now do my cardio and not be dripping wet with sweat.  I am noticing more male attention.  I feel so confident that I am flirting and loving it. Everything is going wonderfully.  But this past week I have noticed something. Something tha I thought I would be immune from.

So far, I have gone through this process with little psychological effects.  I did not have a food addiction so I did not have to deal with missing eating or food.  In fact, sometimes I just don't want to eat anything at all. Nothing sounds good to me. Now, if I had to stop shopping, I would probably need a 12 step program. That is my vice.   I have handled the questions at work.  The warnings of not getting too small.  The jealousy from a coworker who had WLS years ago and failed to lose her weight.  The onslaught of male attention.  I have taken all of this in stride.  So I had started to think that nothing was going to mess with my mind. However, I have come to realize that I have some body image issues. I still see myself as bigger than what I actually am.

The other day, my mom and I were in Wally world and we found these cute christmas tshirts in the male section.  We decided to get one to wear on Christmas day because they were only $6.  I immediately reached for a 2X and my mom was like that will be too big on you. We debated back and forth, me being adamant that I was still big enough that I needed 2X.  Ulitimately, I picked up the XL, but I made sure that I put my receipt in my purse because I knew that I was going to have to bring it back. Well, mom was right (don't you hate that).  The 2X would have been too big.  I also have this belief that my arms are unnatually too big. I have been buying tops a size larger than I need to accomodate my arms.  Well, last night I was trying on some clothes that I had bought on clearance before surgery.  These clothes were from the misses section and not the womens.  They fit. My big arms and all.  That is when I started to realize that maybe I did not see my body the way others do.  It is crazy how your mind can affect what your eyes see. I am glad that I am aware of this so that I can address it.

The last few days I have been surviving on protein shakes. I simply haven't felt like eating. Nothing sounds good. Yesterday I ate 2 chicken wings. That was it for the day besides my protein shakes. Today, I had a hankering for a taco salad, but could only get down a few bites. I just gotta keep doing my protein shakes until this passes. On the plus side. I have lost 6lbs so far this week. My official weigh date is Friday.

Well this week I buckled down and worked hard. I lost all of the Thanksgiving weight and then some. Now, I just gotta be good till Christmas. Wish me luck

Well, the holiday weekend is winding down and I am reflecting over the last few days. I certainly got off track this holiday with my eating.  I could tell when I got on the scale Friday. I ate more than I should have and I drank more calories than I needed to. I am not going to beat myself up about the past few days.  That won't do any good and besides who doesn't over indulge on the holidays?  I have a plan for the upcoming week and hopefully I will get back to losing.

On a more positive note, I did have a wow moment during the holidays. I was able to buy knee boots from a regular shoe store. My calves are finally small enough to fit into knee boots. Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!  Still loving my pouch.

Well, time sure does fly when you're having fun. I can hardly believe it has been 3 months since surgery.  I am down 52 pounds. WOW!  I have boundless energy, well as long as I keep my protein up. I have also noticed more male attention. That is great news for a single gal like me.  So far, I have never regretted my decision to have surgery. It has been one of the best things I have ever done. I don't know what the future holds for me, but I am excited to see what is in store for me.