tonali
11/28/2004
Surgery is just less than a month away now and emotions are starting to set in. My surgeon recommends a high protein liquid diet 2 weeks before surgery so I went thru all my little packets today to make sure I have everything I need. Funny how 2 weeks worth of food can fit into such a small box. I have spent the better part of a day on here looking at before and after pics and reading profiles. I am so appreciative of everyone who has sent me a message of encouragement over the last few weeks. I just finished reading Susan Maria Leach's book "Before & After", and I still don't think I know exactly what it is I am getting myself into but have tried to prepare as best I can mentally and I think that is the most that any of us really can do. The physical part will come during my 2 week liquid protein pre-op and the rest......when I wake in the recovery room.
I have a very good friend that told my mother (in confidence) that he is sorry that he cannot give me the support I want from him right now, but he feels like I am not doing enough to prepare and he needs to see me make a little effort....exactly what should I be doing that (in his eyes) I'm not? I mean, for crying out loud, is he an expert on the subject?....Hell no! I don't feel that I can really do much more than I am already doing...I mean, I guess I could lose weight, but if I could do that successfully, I wouldn't be on this website right now. I will have plenty of opportunity for that when I start the pre-op liquid program (was going to put "diet", but I loath that word...."program" sounds much better). Everyone else tells me that I sound very prepared and ready to go, a positive outlook and all....don't know what his problem is....maybe he is scared something will go wrong and he will lose me. I just don't know....I love him dearly though so I put up with it.
2/06/05
Sorry I don't get in here to update very often. I am now 6 wks post-op and feel fantastic (for the most part). I am down 33# (43 if you count the 10 I lost pre-op) and am amazed by how different I already look. My Lane Bryant size 26 jeans (with stretch) now fit me very loosely even fresh out of the dryer. I can fit into my Levis size 24s which I haven't done in 2 years. Shirts are a little more difficult, they still fit me in the boobs, but are too big in the waist, arms, etc. As for bras, my ribcage has gotten smaller, but the cup size remains the same for now. Good thing I didn't throw away all of my cutesy bras with matching bottoms.....I have started wearing some of them again.... Yea!!!!! As I was saying, for the most part, I feel fantastic. I still tire easily when I exert myself at all and I have to sit and rest for about 10 min or so when I get out of the shower.....which makes getting ready an even longer ordeal. On a very positive note though, I signed an 18 month contract with Anytime Fitness on Saturday. They are opening a new location in Albertville, MN which is very close to me and I love the fact that they are a 24 hour club. I purchased a dual membership so that Mom can take advantage of it too. I told her I would pay the dues, but the only catch is that she has to go at least 3 days a week...if not, she has to pay for her half. Not a bad deal, huh?
Well, I think that's all for now. I will post again when I get a chance. xoxo