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I'm doing better, but still not as well as I could be doing.  I'm down to 231, but I still yo-yoing.  I haven't been exercising for about 4 weeks now.  My blood count is dropping and I will be having a partial hysterectomy in late May, so I won't be so tired anymore and can go back to my walking & working out.  I'm still binging on junk food, but no where near as often, maybe once a week now, which is really good from daily.   I find it difficult to eat regular food since the surgery, which I am working on eating (chewing) proper food instead of junk food (it does go down so much easier).  At first I was upset w/myself w/the slow weight loss because I know I can do better, but I realized that slow and steady stays off better.   I have to remind myself that I am not in a race, that I am losing.

I had the sleeve back in May 2008,  I never reached my goal, the lowest weight I reached was 207-lbs.   I've weighed as much as 268 this year, then down to 240, then back up to 252.   I started a 90 day challenged for myself.  I want to lose 15 by the end of this year and finally reach my goal by the 5th Anniversary ofmy  VSG.    I haven't posted in years.  

I have horrible eating habits since the surgery.  I've had basically stop eating regular food, and just eating cookies, potato chips, honey buns, etc.   They go down so much easier than meats.  I don't like left over meat anymore since the surgery, and since I could never get into the hang of chewing properly, it has been a battle eating meats.   And let me tell you even though I don't eat a lot of food, the junk food I eat has a lot calories.

I've always had a higher intake than most since the surgery, and I did not start exercising until mid 2009 which did not last long.

I am back to walking and starting to jog a little.   I hope by coming back to OH, it will keep me focus on my goals.

 

 

I'm a few day's past 9 months.   I weigh 222-lbs.   I'm still a food addict.  I still battle with the urge overeat, but the good thing is my stomach won't allow me eat what my eyes want.  I have turned into a junkfood eater.  I find that on the weekend I have no discipline with the junk I'm putting into my mouth, (no accountability) LOL!!!  I finally begain exercising on a regular basis since the beginning of the year, and it's makes a big difference with the inches and firming up. 

  I had hanging skin before the sleeve and it's only gotten worse with the weight loss, but alas, I like sleeveless shirts, so I let the batwings fly like a bird in the sky, the rest can be hidden with a good girdle.  Warning,  for those of you who have been overweight for decades like me, be prepared I have skin hanging from everywhere on my body but my calves,  I did not realize you can have loose skin around your knees.  Talking about knees,   I have to use a pillow between them when I go to sleep, I feel my bones.  

My twins have gone MIA, they abandoned me with the weight loss,  I went from a 48DD to a small 44C cup.   I need a breast lift w/my own fat, a brazilian but lift as well as a full body lift.   

At first I was having difficulty dealing w/the fact that I was not losing as fast as a lot of people on the board, until I got it through my thick skull to stop comparing myself with other people.   i conquered my obsession with the scale and only weigh in every blue moon (it was such a liberating feeling to not be a slave to my scale).    We love it when it moves down, and turn on it when it does not move or dare I say go up instead of down. LOL!!!

My biggest hurdle at this point is to stop eating at the first indications of feeling full,  instead of waiting until I feel like I can't stuff another bite into my mouth. I'm learning to either throw the food away as soon as I feel full, because I pick at it for hours until it's gone.   If I blow it today, I don't beat myself up, because tomorrow is another day.  I realize that I've been overeating for years, I should not expect the urge to dissappear because I had surgery.  The surgery is a tool for me to use until I can get my brain to cooperate w/my stomach, in the meantime the sleeve will police my brain and my big eyes until they are all on one accord.



***Warning,  pop corn melts in your mouth, you can actually eat a lot of popcorn,  A whole bag at the movies, if you don't watch it.!!!


See you at 12 months.

Today I am two months out. I have lost exactly 30-lbs from the day I had surgery. I believe I have hit a plateau, I have been gaining and losing the same damn 3 lbs for the last two weeks. I know I was retaining water from the way I've been urinating. I tried to up my water but I also have a UTI which also causes me to retain water. I have lost a total of 47-lbs for this year altoghether which I should be estatic about since this is the most I've lost in a year since 1989. Why are we so hard on ourselves, that's a question I've been pondering to myself. Everyone tells me how good I look, and I know I look good, I can fit into 22 and some 20's that's a serious down from 30/32. I have to remember that I can now shop at other stores than Avenue, that's going to be a major adjustment.

I'm proud of the fact that for the last week I've finally gotten a handle on my portion control, this is why I'm not freaking out about the weight loss, b/c I know I haven't been over doing it, I'm not eating until I feel miserable, I'm learning to read my body signals that give me cues' such as the belching excessively when I'm about to be fulll, sometimes my nose runs.

I was upset for a while b/c I can eat more than most, and the reason I went with the sleeve was the reduced intake. I have very unhealthy eating habits, I only want to drink coffee or tea in the morning w/a bannana and I usually don't eat lunch until around 1:00pm, then I go without eating until around 8-9:00pm then I just pig out. Did I mention that I get up around 5-5:30am and don't drink or eat until 9:00-9:30am.

I'm going to my family reunion this weekend, and I will have lost appx 20-lbs since they saw me last year. I would have like to be down by at least 10 more but atlas I did not work my sleeve to get optimum results. I have made a resolve that when I get back from vacation, that I will incorporate walking and some form of exercising.

I'm becoming OK with the fact that I can't eat all that I want to sometimes. I cooked a huge meal on Sunday and just fixed myself a little plate and fed what was left to the dog after I realized that I did not need to eat another bite. I sure wanted to eat more...LOL!!!, but that is what the sleeve is for.

I don't feel tired like I use to all the time. I can take regular and horse pills again w/out any problems. I'm back on the iron, I take b-12 sublingual, and a multivitamin everyday. I go to sleep earlier and am waking up earlier, but I also don't wake up in the middle of the night as much. I'm also going to therapy for my shoulder, I still wake up in the middle of the night w/throbing pain. I only wake up about twice through the middle of the night and stay up for about 3 hrs, not like it was every darn night through the week.

I have bat wings real bad, my calves have gone to mush and I can see where my thighs are more than jello. UUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH. I have started my savings for PLASTIC SURGERY!!!!!!!!!! A TOTAL BODY LIFT. I hope I have enough boobs left b/c I really don't want implants, a good lift, I wonder can the dr take the fat off my a2s and thighs and put in my boobs......

Anyways this is my update.....

I am six weeks out and I have not been on the scale for almost two weeks. I have not been utilizing my tool, in fact i've been sabotaging my tool. I have been bingeing on the weekend, eating way to many mangos. I am honestly afraid of the volume that I can eat. I don't have an internal signal on most of the foods I eat, so by the time I realize that I am full, i'm usually miserable. I'm PMS'n (by the way it came two weeks early) and yesterday I went to a baby shower at work and ate the icing on a red velvet cake, and a slither taste of a strawberry cake. I can't eat know where near as much, but I know I can down much more than the average sleever (i wonder sometime if this going to work for me). I know that this is a normal thought and I tell myself to get rid of the negative thoughts and start listening to the inner me.

I have yet to begin exercising, I'm just not motivated. i tell myself everyday that i'm going to bally's and I haven't gotten back yet. I'm still having difficulty drinking water, no desire at all to drink anything. I forgot to mention that I drank about 4oz of pepsi just to see what it would do and it did nothing to me. I had to remember that I still will not drink soda b/c of the sugar contents.

I know my weight-loss should be much higher than it is, but I'm trying to turn things around this week.

Wish me luck!

I'm a little more than 3 weeks out, as of Wed I had lost 18-lbs since surgery. I lost 7-lbs by day 13, weigh in at PCP office. I decided to go back to work early b/c of my issues with boredom eating. I was feeling fine and I wanted to go back to work, especially since I was getting p/c everyday and everything was igoing crazy. I sit at my desk most of the day on the phone & computer so my doc said it was fine and i'm only working half a day for about 2 more weeks, then back to full-time.

I'm concerned about the volume that I can eat. I can drink a whole 32oz cup of chicken soup less the dumpling. I can eat the chicken, carrots, potatoes, and whatever else in the soup as long as I chew really well. I do realize that I must be eating correctly b/c the pounds are still shedding regularly. I ate some steam fish and plaintains last night. I had about 1-2oz of fish before I started feeling. I was able to almost half a scoop of tuna fish from the job. It's true you get fuller with more solid foods than liquid. I'm so happy about that. I've been eating cottage cheese everyday w/tbsp of hummus for taste w/string cheese, very filling.

I'm still having issues with drinking water. Crystal lite is causing heartburn issues, and I don't like the flavor of it once I put the bullets in them. I'm probably drinking anywhere from 2-3c of water only. I'm drinking broths and tea to compensate for the rest of the liquid, but I know I really need to learn to get in 64oz of water. The good thing is that my urine is not a golden color anymore.

I haven't started exercising yet. I will eventually. It's been raining everyday in the afternoons and evening so I haven't began working out yet. I'm thinking about cancelling my bally's and joining curves. I did buy a Wii Fit, but I have yet to try it out.

I'm going start experimenting after week four with more foods to see what i can tolerate.

I had a good experience in Mexico. Dr. A and his asst. were wonderful. Dr. A has a private nurse for his patients from 9am - 5pm, you still have the hospital nurses, but you get that personal one on one care from Priscilla. I must say the hospital nurses were very attentive. They kept pain & nauseau medication flowing through my veins.

Priscilla gave me a IV of saline before the surgery b/c I was dehydrated ( I don't like drinking liquids -go figure). Priscilla then gave me demerol which took effect immediately. I woke up in the hospital room and asked my husband when are they going to take me to surgery and how long had I been going in and out of sleep, he started laughing and told me that I had already surgery and that I had been sleeping close to an hour. I immediately asked him to help me up that I had to pee. I did start to remember Priscilla moving the bed and vaguely remember being told to move to another bed twice and the anesteiolgist telling me to move back a little and I was out. It all seem so unreal. The dr's came in asked how did I feel, was I in pain. I did experience dry heaving after about an hour and by the time I had my second incident I realize that it only occured when I swallowed my spit. Made sure not to do that again and l let the Dr's know.

I slept for the rest of the day waking when the urge to urinate occured. I got up the next morning and walked the halls a few times. The gave me pain and nausea meds around the clock. I must say I felt good the next day, I sat up on the computer and paid all my bills online. LOL!!!

I was bored by the end of the second day and was ready to go to San Antoinio. After Rosie took us to San Antonio, we checked in the LaQuinta and took a shuttle to the mall. We walked around until I felt tired, then caught a shuttle back to the hotel where I promtly went to sleep. I woke up around 1:00 with acid on the back my throat and took one of the acid blockers Dr. A provided. I did manage to get a decent amount of water in on day two because my urine started clearing up again. LOL!!! I did struggle on day 3 .

On day 3 I experience a little discomfort with my stomach *note to readers it actual feels better if you put a stomach binder on when walking around. I still am amazed at the fact that I have no desire to eat.

I woke up on day 4 and felt that this is a good day b/c I could feel that my stomach was feeling stronger.

Day 5.

It's an even better day. I feel like I could go to work for a half day, but I have promised myself to take at two weeks off and go back half a day until I can ascertain what my engery level will be since I am anemic.

I like to sit and rub my new tummy it still a new wonder to me.

I'm want it to be done already!!!!!!!!!!!