younglady201
COMING TO THE TRUTH, part 1
Apr 30, 2007
As I sit here in my apartment and feel the pain in my chest that is also in my back. I know that this is not what I had in mind. Wanting to cry but not wanting to cry because I can't find a reason to do it. Don't know why I want to cry. But coming to the truth of it all, being sad and hurt is killing me, But when you feel that no one will hear, you seem to keep all your emotions and feelings inside. So you lie, saying you are good when you are not, saying they can cry on your shoulder, but who shoulder can you cry on. Being hurt by people you thought was your friend but never telling them, takes a toll on your heart and your trust. So you eat, but never knowing you are eating because you're sad. And trying to stop is harder. Coming to the truth that you have never been in love, and it is because of your weight, makes you really want to do something....EAT. But that wil ot solve your problem, but make it wrost. Knowing your health is in danger scares you, so you try to work out and eat right, but fail which making you depressed and ....EAT. Are we seeing a pattern, yep.Coming to the truth that you have been lying to yourself for years because you do not want to be hurt by others in turns you are hurting yourself. COMING TO THE TRUTH IS GIVING ME A HEAD-ACHE.
