Ayy wussup everyone! My name is L.J, i am currently 21 years old but that will change within the next month(exactly one month from now). I am a full-time student at University of Houston Downtown, this is actually my last year, i graduate May 09'*Thank God* with my B.S degree in Psychology. I am kind of excited to begin Grad school the following fall after i graduate, finally indulging in a subject which i am extremely passionate about. It's always been a desire of mine to help people through their situations and problems- behavorial science gives me that opportunity. Well that pretty much completes what is happening now, life is pretty uneventful and my story explains why.
Wow!!! where do i begin...? How bout the begining... I was born in Houston, Texas to a mom that gave me up for adoption to the best family i could ever ask for, immediate family that is. I never knew i was adopted till later on in life which i will get to a little bit later. Though i was born in Texas i moved to California with my family when i was 2 and there is where i lived majority of my life. Let me start off by saying, i wasnt always Big. I have been big for as long as i can remember, but looking back on baby pictures i noticed that i had the oppportunity to be thin as very young child. I say this because all i ever heard growing up from older aunts was "i remember when i used to take you home after church and feed you fried chicken, rice and gravy, greens, cornbread, sweet potatoes....", let me tell you, the list seemed infinite. Uhhh....thanx for making me fat! Not to forget to mention all my bio siblings are thin, and i cant begin to tell you how many there are becuz i dont even know myself. One in particular is my biologial brother whom we both share the same mother and father, he is 360 days younger than i am, same height as i am, and luckily 168 lbs lighter than i am. WOW!! It's even more depressing saying it outloud. He is 150 lbs. and 5'11 (i kno right, super thin- too thin in my opinion) and i am 5'11 and 318 lbs...Anywayz.... they kept him. I was always bitter about that at first but things happen for a reason and i appreciate the reason.
At about 6 is when i started struggling with my weight, i had never been reminded up untill then that i was fat. At this particuar time i never considered myself to be fat, a little husky but not fat. From age 6-8 i ran track during the winter into spring. After those couple of years had passed i was unactive and i had gotten bigger and bigger within a matter of years. I cannot give exact numbers because i always tried to forget them but i was the biggest one in all my classes till i got to junior high where i played baseball. Though i was no longer the biggest one i was still tormented and made fun of and this made my junior high school years the worst in my entire life. Junior high school broke me, going into high school i had extremely low self esteem and i hated the way i look, i was 275 lbs. Things had gotten better throughout my frosh and soph. years but i still battled with my weight and was disgusted with the way i look. When i was 15 (between 275&280 lbs.) my family decided to move back to Texas and there is when everything got worse. I finally found out i was adopted, and the women who is my bio mother, i have known my whole life. Pretty wierd! I lived 2 years in Houston, miserable, unhappy and depressed untill i went back to kali for college. There i was involved in a very serious relationship for 2 years and had developed friendships that i still value today...Back in Texas. Yep, im back...temporarily, here is where i decided to finishup college being that it is so much cheaper. But as you can guess, i still have an issue with my weight, and still very unhappy.
Since college had started i had lost and gained' lost and regained...i tried everything in the book untill i got tired of loosing and regaining. Come on,,, its college, its inevitable. So one day after runnning into a friend of mine, she told me that she got lap-band. As this came as no surprise i was still shocked because she looked great. Seeing her encouraged me to pull up some research on weight loss surgery and as it all sounded great i became more interested in the lapband. Digging for more and more research i reached the decision to get lap-band. I moved into this process pretty quickly only to hope that everything would happen even quicker. No thanx to my surgeon's nurse... she really needs to get on her grind and make something happen. I'm expecting something before the years out because i need to reach a mini goal before graduation.
