~~ GIRLY GIRL ~~ Hon, I know exactly what you're going through. Any one of us who have had surgery knows ALL too well the feelings you're experiencing right now. I too was very afraid, questioning right up until the bitter end if I was making the right decision. I looked at it this way - If it's God's time to take me, it doesn't matter if it's being in surgery, on an airplane, in a car, walking down the street, or even slipping in my bathtub. If it's your time to go, it's your time to go. Only GOD knows when that moment will be for all of us so, put your COMPLETE trust in Him for He will NEVER fail you. " Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain thee: He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved. " PSALMS 55:22 We're all here for you hon and praying for you, as well. If there's anything you need, feel free to e-mail me. I will be shouting prayers to the Heavens for you to overcome your fears. JUST GIVE IT TO HIM!!! Love, Hugs and Blessings to you! †