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I was on my first diet when I was 6 months old, not a good start I suppose. Obesity and it's related problems run rampant in my family and I am not exception. I like every obese person have severe issues with food, do I know that yes but it still never stopped me from doing what I needed to do to be healthy and truthfully it took my father dying for me to realize that I did not want to be this fat girl anymore. Inside of me is this sexy, confidant woman and the outside just doesn't match. I settled for being treated as less than because I thought I didn't deserve to be treated any better, I have watched as other people in my life live fuller happier lives and I have looked into the eyes of my little boy and tried to see what he sees when he looks at me.....Now it's time for a change. I have lost over 100 pounds so far on my own, I feel so much better but as I write this I am still 280 lbs and still far from a healthier happier me. I have been in the Kaiser Richmond Bariatric program for a little over a year and I continued in the program even when my family moved to the mountains and the drive back and forth for classes every week was 8 hours. I have been committed, determined and have even felt shear desperation at some points in this process and now it is here. I am scheduled for surgery on August 26, 2008....am I scared?? Terrified......but at the same time I think that this 31 year old body has a lot of miles left on it and I am just looking forward to the ride....I lost my father too soon, I will not leave my little boy without him knowing that I tried everything in my power to stay with him a little longer.......
