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Okay, is any other heavy "pretty girl" sick of hearing that?  One of the things I am sooo looking forward to is when this so-called "compliment" isn't spoken in the content that insinuates how unfortunate it is that I'm fat being that I am "such a pretty girl".  Ugh.  Oh and the other one that irks me is, "You're a beautiful person."  Yes, thank you....I appreciate that.  Maybe I'm a beautiful person on the inside, pretty on the out, and fat everywhere else....but soon enough, I am going to feel and know I am beautiful all the way "A - ROUND".  :)  The time is near....

Boy it's been a rough road....but I made it through.  Today and tomorrow is all I have left before surgery.  I've withstood a baby shower, a birthday party at a country club for God's sakes (hate country clubs...but I would have LIKED to eat!!!), a Memorial Day cookout, and just the struggles of sticking to it late at night or smack in the middle of the afternoon when the munchies kick in.  I keep telling myself it will all be worth it...I'll be healthier...my kids will have me longer (hopefully!), I'll look better, I'll feel better....it's all gonna' come together!  However, I am so afraid at this point that it's not going to work.  Silly right?  I've accepted the fact that they are removing 80% of my stomach, I've accepted the fact that I could have painful chest spasms for up to six weeks, I've accepted the fact that it's a lifestyle change.....but what if it doesn't work after all this?  I must admit though, I am sooo looking forward to being out of work for a little over two weeks.  (wish I could be out a little longer...but I can't afford it!)  :) 

Hurry up Thursday....let's get this over with.  :)

8 more days to go...I can do this.  I keep having all these bubbles in my stomache though....that's annoying!  But it's manageable.  I can't wait to not be hungry....it's not constant, though, which is good.  It lasts for a short time and I find that if I do something else, I forget about it and it goes away. Re-direction, right?  Time to start my day....here we go again.  Let's do it....

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot eat, courage to eat the things I'm supposed to, and the wisdom to make it taste better.  AMEN!

Does anyone else wonder what it's for?  I finally had it explained to me....I figured it was for safety reasons when they are working in there, but the details provided put it in a much better perspective.  The nutritionist said that the liver is held up by this little "hook" while they are working in there, and many of the things we eat cause the liver to be fatty and floppy.  The floppiness of the liver makes it more prone to rips and tears once it's all "hooked up".  When you are only doing liquids and a lot of protein (Powder, small amounts of lean meat like turkey or chicken, fish....) it is much firmer and less fatty.  I was grateful for the explanation.  Hope someone reads this that was wondering the same thing....

Day #2 of this diet...Lord, give me strength! 

Have a good day everyone. 

Dawn

Hi everyone,
My name is Dawn and I am determined to find fabulosity after 40.  I just had my 41st birthday and for about two years now, I have been mentally, emotionally, and  most recently..physically preparing for this weight loss surgery!  I started a two week liver reduction diet today through Synergy Bariatrics.  Normally, I don't eat breakfast and my body does not react to skipping that meal.  However today on day 1 of this gosh awful diet, I get a headache shortly after breakfast time has passed.  Apparently, my head knows what I am about to do and my body is objecting....so on top of the diet itself, my head hurting really takes the cake!  Better the head than the mouth, right?  Oh Gosh, my poor family!  Once 5:00 rolls around and I am surrounded by a teenager and a pre-teen, I can only imagine how the rest of the day is going to go.  Especially while I am cooking them dinner and can't eat any of it.....  I wouldn't want to be THEM the next few days.  Poor babies.  It's a good thing they love me! 

So here's what's in my head two weeks before the surgery.  Actually, not much is in my head outside of the ache in my temples.  I can't seem to focus on anything except the fact that I have three more protein shakes to drink between now and 8:00 pm.  This is gonna' suck!  I think this part is going to be worse than the surgery. 

I am getting the gastric sleeve.  Surgery is May 31st at 8am (so I'll be there by 5:30...yikes!) I have noticed I am starting to get jittery.  Every little ache and pain in my stomach stands out now and out of sheer paranoia and the "possibility" that something is going to prevent this from happening, I've diagnosed myself with a hernia or a tumor.  Just my luck right?  Suffering through two weeks of nothing but protein shakes and 4 ounces of turkey (yuck!) and  what do I get out of it when I wake up in the OR?  "We couldn't perform the surgery because of this or that..."  I'd be so disappointed.  So that's where I'm at now....just freaking out over the possibility that after all the stuff I've put myself through to get a little help here, they end up not being able to do it.  

My more optmistic side believes it's going to happen...and that my worries are for nothing.  I really hope that side is right!  For now, though, let's go with that while I go get another protein shake.  Bottoms up!