dbarr
Fabulosity after 40
May 17, 2012
Hi everyone,My name is Dawn and I am determined to find fabulosity after 40. I just had my 41st birthday and for about two years now, I have been mentally, emotionally, and most recently..physically preparing for this weight loss surgery! I started a two week liver reduction diet today through Synergy Bariatrics. Normally, I don't eat breakfast and my body does not react to skipping that meal. However today on day 1 of this gosh awful diet, I get a headache shortly after breakfast time has passed. Apparently, my head knows what I am about to do and my body is objecting....so on top of the diet itself, my head hurting really takes the cake! Better the head than the mouth, right? Oh Gosh, my poor family! Once 5:00 rolls around and I am surrounded by a teenager and a pre-teen, I can only imagine how the rest of the day is going to go. Especially while I am cooking them dinner and can't eat any of it..... I wouldn't want to be THEM the next few days. Poor babies. It's a good thing they love me!
So here's what's in my head two weeks before the surgery. Actually, not much is in my head outside of the ache in my temples. I can't seem to focus on anything except the fact that I have three more protein shakes to drink between now and 8:00 pm. This is gonna' suck! I think this part is going to be worse than the surgery.
I am getting the gastric sleeve. Surgery is May 31st at 8am (so I'll be there by 5:30...yikes!) I have noticed I am starting to get jittery. Every little ache and pain in my stomach stands out now and out of sheer paranoia and the "possibility" that something is going to prevent this from happening, I've diagnosed myself with a hernia or a tumor. Just my luck right? Suffering through two weeks of nothing but protein shakes and 4 ounces of turkey (yuck!) and what do I get out of it when I wake up in the OR? "We couldn't perform the surgery because of this or that..." I'd be so disappointed. So that's where I'm at now....just freaking out over the possibility that after all the stuff I've put myself through to get a little help here, they end up not being able to do it.
My more optmistic side believes it's going to happen...and that my worries are for nothing. I really hope that side is right! For now, though, let's go with that while I go get another protein shake. Bottoms up!
