16 Dec 01: I'm wondering why we don't all post on update pages once we've had our surgery... that way it posts on our profile AND on the message board... anyway... that's what I'm going to do now. I try to keep my profile current as a sort of "diary" for myself.
I had a really wonderful evening Friday night : ) Was my squadron Christmas party... I bought a new dress (was going to wear a different outfit but decided to go "all out")... it's black lycra that looks like velvet, falls almost to my ankles and has a slit up the side. I had my hair done and it was "big"! Bought it at Burlington Coat factory for next to nothing... amazing that I found anything I like... and anything that FIT!!! Anyway... When I got to the party there were people (that I work with) coming up and introducing themselves... they didn't recognize me!!! I know we look different out of uniform but I had kids telling me that they wanted me to dress like that for work every day!!! I even had one kid "grind" on me (on the dance floor) ... he asked my friend to introduce is... I said, "I'm your Dorm Manager you idiot!" and he said, "NO WAY!!" Everyone started laughing and telling him it was true... he was so embarrassed... he said, "I'm so embarrassed... I just grinded my Dorm Manager!" Then he kept coming up to me and apologizing (I'm a TSgt/E-6 and he's an A1C/E-3)... no matter how I tried to convince him that it was OK... poor kid!!! I even had this guy from work, that I have a crush on, keep coming by and putting his arm around my waist... while he was passing by (he was actually working - part time job at the club we were at). I kept feeling like he was staring at me (kept catching his eye)... it was all so awesome. For so long I've felt like NOTHING.... invisible... ugly.... well you all KNOW what I mean.... and for one night I felt like Cinderella!!! I was afraid to go to sleep in case it all was a dream... all of a sudden I was beautiful... I've lost 37 lbs and still have 93 lbs to goal... but I'm already feeling like a new person.... what will the loss of 93 lbs bring? The love of my life? I haven't dared to look for so long... and really that isn't as important as my own self respect, good health, and pure happiness! Anyway... maybe there will be more "Cinderella nights " ahead for me... and you all!