Mikkii

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Well things are about the same as they were the last time that I posted. I've moved up near Memphis and I have a job interview tomorrow with a place called KidzArt.
I had a funny experience Friday night. I went out to a club with some friends.  My husband was looking for something in his wallet and an old picture of me fell out.  Everyone picked it up and looked at it in amazement.  One of my friends was like, "Wow! I had no idea that you were ever that fat!"
Errr...thanks?  lol :)
Went on a very long walk yesterday in the blistering southern sun without drinking much....the walk was good but I thought I was going to die of heat stroke when I got back home.  Been going to the gym a good bit too to actually try and do some work on my flimsy little arm muscles.
Still waiting to hear from the National Guard.  Actually, waiting on paperwork to come in from the hospital where I had my ankle surgery so that the National Guard can do the next part of what they need to do.  I hate this waiting  crap. I am so not a patient person :)
I'm posting new pictures today.
(hugs)

Well, wow. It's been a super long time since I've posted on here and I'm sorry to my buddies.
Things have been pretty good. I'm down to about 188.  Hurray!  I figure from 297 to 188 is an amazing feat.  My goal is 150; but that may be a pushing it a little bit.  I'm working really hard.
I walk at least 2 miles a day and most days i try to do more than that.  I also do lots of sit ups and try to do pushups.  
I'm enlisting in the national guard.  Or trying to.  Usually gastric bypass is a disqualifier, but some people can get waivers.  I turned in my medical paperwork to the recruiter a few days ago and am waiting to hear back.
I hope everyone is doing good.  I'll be sending some of you guys messages here soon :)
you can email me at my regular email address if you want. i'll probably see it a lot quicker...
vampyregyrl@hotmail.com
love ya.

Just wanted to update real quick. I'm at about 225 and seem to have hit some kind of stall.  I'm working on just pushing through it.  The fact that I get on the scales 20 times a day doesn't help.  I need to put those things in the closet and only get them out once a week or so.
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I'm still having trouble with what I eat.  I haven't found a meat yet that doesn't bother me.  A lot of veggies make me sick.  Mostly I can eat potatoes, crackers, and chips.  But when i eat them i feel all guilty about taking in carbs and i tend to compensate by over-exercising; not a good habit to get in to.  
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Another issue I've developed is skewed body image.  I was perfectly content with the way I looked before my surgery, but now that i've started losing the weight I absolutely CAN NOT look at myself and tell I've lost the weight.  That is driving me batty.  I know i'm smaller though because people that i don't see often are always telling me i look great and wanting to know how i'm losing so much weight.  It's a very weird feeling to have.
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Anyway...just wanted to let you guys know what was up.
Also - next summer, if I get down to 175 (and i'm pretty sure I will) i'm thinking of joining the military.  my family thinks it's a strange thing to do at 30 years old, but it's something i'd considered when i was younger, i was always too heavy to join though.   my main decision at the moment is whether or not i want to go army or navy.
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that's about it for now.
(hugs to everyone)

Things have been insanely crazy. My husband got back from basic training and we moved into a new house.  I feel incredible. : )
I'm down from 297 to about 235!  I'd probably be doing tons better if I were exercising more.  But with everything going on I can't seem to find the time. I do walk a good bit while I'm at work; so I'm trying to find the positive in that for right now.  I'm down from a size 28 jeans to a size 18.  I think I was a junior in high school the last time I saw size 18's, and that was almost 15 years ago!!
I hope everyone is doing great!
(hugs)

Well, I've had a couple of bad days.  Yesterday I was so tired all I did was stay in the bed and watch videos.  I figured I'd wake up this morning and feel a little better; instead I woke up feeling worse. 
Got dressed, went to work.  Had a crying fit and told the principal that I probably needed a half day sub.  The kids were pretty good for me. They knew that I wasn't feeling well. 
Talked to a nurse friend and told her how I was feeling.  She seems to think that my blood sugar is running low.  I came home and checked it and it was actually a tiny bit high.  So I have no idea what's going on other than I feel really crappy. 
I just keep telling myself it'll all be worth it....it'll all be worth it.  I've been off my blood pressure meds since the surgery and I'm down from a size  28 to a size 22/20.  It's just going to take some getting used to and some adjusting and some healing.  It'll get better....it will it will.

Well so far things have gone well.  These are the things that I've found I do well with:
1. eggs
2. grits
3. refried beans
4. dannon lite & fit yogurt
5. turkey bacon (cooked extra extra crispy)
6. cheese and crackers
7. tropicanna lite and healthy orange juice (i drink about 2 ounces of this with my meds...it helps to cut the taste a lot)
So far I've only found one thing that I can't eat:  tuna fish.  i had some the other night and thought that I was going to have a heart attack and die. 
I'm also having trouble with not drinking while I eat.  It's just habit for me to gr a drink of water every once in a while while i'm eating.  The only way i can keep myself from doing it is to make certain i don't have any water anywhere around while I'm eating.
I'm also doing really badly with my protein drinks.  I can't find one that I can tolerate the taste.  I've always had a weak stomach, so if I try to make myself drink one I get all throwuppy.  I've tried freezing them but that hasn't worked either.  I've ordered some BeneProtein to see how that works.  I have to find something b/c I'm absolutely not getting th protein in that I need.  Someone suggested putting it in the blender with some weight watchers carb control sugar free ice cream; but i'm petrified to try ice cream this early in.  I'll get it figured out eventually I guess.
Gonna go get in bed and get some rest.  My friends all say that I'm pushing myself too hard to get back into the swing of things; so today is rest day.  :)
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The surgery went amazingly well.  I loved Tim and Dr. Freeman. RMC was great.  I had to stay an extra day because I kept running fever.  I was so tired of having those stupid drains in that I thought i was going to cry with joy when they finally took them out.  I was even able to drive the  7 hours home, though I was exhausted once i got done.
I've done really well with pain.  I've had almost none at all.  I occasionally take a dose of the loratab elixir at the end of the day i've gotten out and done a lot.   
i went and saw my kids at school yesterday to eat lunch with them and tell them i'd be back wednesday.  they were so excited it almost made me cry.
and for anyone who's curious....i'm down from 297 to 257 :) go me go me go me go me! I'm so excited that i don't know what to do with myself.
yay yay yay!

I'm finishing up packing today in preperation for leaving bright and early tomorrow morning and making my 7 hour drive to Anniston.  I'm fairly certain that I'm taking way more than I'll ever possibly use, but better to be over-prepared than under-prepared...right?
I'm excited, but the closer it gets the more scared i get.  Especially now that people have started calling to tell me they're thinking of me and that I'm in their prayers.  i'm getting super nervous.  
it's sort of funny to be so ready and excited of something that you're so petrified of.  
well, i've got things to do.  if anyone wants to chat i'll be popping by the computer some...msn vampyregyrl@hotmail.com or for my friends who want to call today or anytime actually 662-822-1972
love you all
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Since cutting the sugar and caffeine out of my diet I've been completely miserable. I'm not having any trouble sticking to the diet, but I've been getting these horrendous pounding headaches. Most people have told me that it's b/c I'm not taking in sugar and caffeine like I was before.  I just know that I feel all ughy.  My energy level is about the same though, which is a good thing. I don't think I'd make it through the day with a classroom full of eager, bouncy sixth graders if my energy level was any lower than it already is; and with an uber-headache to boot.
I have a little bit of a headache today, but it's not horrible.  I'm hoping that it doesn't get worse by the end of the day. Please please please don't let it get worse. I've gotten into the bad habit of going home, doing only the bare minimum of what I have to do; then taking an advil p.m. and crawling into bed about 6:30/7:00 at night.  
Things will get better. I know they will. This is just an adjustment that I have to get through.
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Got my pre-surgery packet in the mail today.
Started my soup, salad, sandwich diet in preperation
for surgery.  I've done pretty well so far. I miss my powerades.
The lack of sugar and caffeine has my energy level at
next to zero, but I'm making it :)  It'll just take some getting used
to.  
I've got all of my appointments scheduled and am set and ready
to go. The closer it gets to time the more nervous and freaked
out i'm getting. Times like this I really really miss my husband.
But the way I look at it, I'll be much healthier and on my way to
being skinnier when he gets to come home :)
Went to the store today to buy some stuff that I'll need: protein
powder, sugarfree jello, chicken bullion, magnesium citrate,
gas-x, etc.  Everything is starting to feel so real. 

(hugs)