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Well.. I guess things did start to go up! All is well @ Hacienda de Nickycole :P Everything's okay between me and the other half. Just a momentary blip. We have those often but I really thought it was over for good. It will be one day, but my insecurity keeps me here, and I know thats bad, and I know what my problem is, just not sure how to deel with it. Anyways.. I had planned on making it back to work today but I didnt get that far. Last night before I went to bad, I was having some pretty bad pain above my biggist incision. But now its just a little tingly.. Im not sure what is there? Its almost like I can feel somthing. I get my staples out on thursday, so I am going to ask, for sure. Im not sure where my port is.. everyone claims to have port pain, and I dont think I am, unless thats what that is, but there's no incision there? Guess I will ask that question. Anywho, whatever it is, its gone now. Today was MUCH easier! Im almost 100% able to function on my own with out any complications. 

Tonight was another nigth full of shopping. I literally shopped till I dropped. lol I started the sweeting, and the tight shoulders, its the same ole thing, night after night. Straight to the truck I went. I thought maybe it was the hot chocolate but it wasnt. I cant wait until my body realizes, I cant give it as much as I use too, and my sugar is just going to have to adjust. Today I drank alot of water. My menu today was Jello for breakfeast, cottage cheese for lunch, and cream of broccoli soup.. it was yummi.. then while we were shopping I got a hot chocolate from STARBUCKS!!!! Ahh.. that word is heaven. 

Anywho, its bed time, and im going to sleep tonight!! I am tired!

Well.. Today has been interesting.. not much pain at all other then the stinkin staple under my left breast. I guess this is where it DOES NOT pay off to have larger breasts. I look pretty stupid carrying them around. I would'nt even be telling anyone about this if it wasnt for the fact, someone may need to know lol. I cant put a bra on.. it hits the staples where my port is. I think I would be a lot more comfortable if I could wear it. Ugh! One other thing I noticed is I smell.. lol I am sweating an awful lot, my sugar is going up and down, and im having the dizzy spells and such, which I was told would happen. My pancreas is working over time, or has been working over time and eventually it would catch up.. well it did. That was my only problem today. I didnt much feel like moving.. odd because yesterday I wanted too but I was having trouble getting myself up, with out a little assistance. Today, I felt like a bump on a log, most likely due to my sugar. My boyfriend decided it was time to get up and go somewhere so he insisted that I tag along to pick fruit at a friends house. Ofcourse I stayed in the truck and sweated some more lol while he picked fruit. My truck is very hard to get into.. its got a little lift, and I have a pretty high step stool to get in it. I felt retarded, like a lame horse that needed assitance or somthing. My emotions are getting the best of me, and I have come to the relization that almost 99% of the comercials on TV are for food. And.. in my whole life, ive never seen my three favorite foods together on TV, ironic huh?? I think so.. lol on the brightside.. I started my "real" liquids today, if there is such a thing. The pudding was incrediable, but I was dreaming about Subway, and Red Lobster, (with stuffed mushrooms) AHHH!!!!!!!! The crab legs.. and the shrimp.. god I didnt realize food was soo important to me. But, it was. "WAS" is the keyword in that sentence. Hopefully I can shake these feelings of diving into the TV. As you can tell.. im not having any troubles thus far. This is my first surgery, and I think its gone easily for me. I hope and pray that it goes this easy for everyone else.

11/29/2006 
Well..today wasnt too bad. I had some trouble this morning, I got up to go to the bathroom, and I guess I sat there to long lol cause my legs went to sleep and I couldnt get up. That was bad, considering I was alone. I dont think my legs ever went to sleep like this before.. they just kinda tingled..  but they HURT to put my feet on the floor. Ouchie! This morning got off to a rough start, I crunched my ice chips, ate a little bit of Jello, and then again for lunch. I had broth for the first time since surgery,(the broth in the hospital was GROSS) lol but mine tonight was yummy.. and tomorrow I start the rest of my liquids! Yippee!! lol believe it or not, im excited about eating cottage cheese, and apple sauce.. yum yum! Tomorrow wont get here soon enough :( heeh... 
I took my bandages off today, and to my suprise my stomach doesnt look awful. I have maybe 8 staples. My tummy isnt bruised, or gross looking. One of my incisions is hurting a tad bit,  but not really bad. I have only took pain meds once today and that was after my incident this morning lol. Im not walking as much as I should. It hard to get up by myself, especially since I am burrowed into my moms couch. But, I took a shower :) That was nice. Okie dokie.. im tired.. it was a long day sitting on my butt.. More to come later :)

Well.. Im going to update by days for the first week or so... I had lap band surgery on November 27th, done by Dr. Jawad. I got to the hospital at 6AM.. I was only in the registration waiting room for about 10 minutes, with another patient of Dr.Jawads scheduled for the morning to. I think I was the first to go. They took me back to a room, had me pee in a cup, since im of child birthing age, and had to stop my birth control lol then they had me get undressed and then they kicked my fiance out. Only my mom was aloud to stay with me at that point.. (the room was very small) then.. I got in the bed, and watched the news for 45 minutes, I was okay to this point.. then the lady came in to hook up my I.V and get some information, and test my sugar since im hyper w/severe reactive hypo glycemia.. So, she got me all rigged up, and had me put my blue booties on.. then I started to cry and get scared. I wasnt hystarical but I wasnt calm, just had tears rolling down my face, and my heart was beating out of my chest, (this is my 1st surgery of an age I can remember, I was five the last time) so.. she said, okay, im going to give you somthing to calm you down,the next thing I knew, I was gigling like a little girl and they were wheeling me away from my mom as I waived good bye. Next thing I remember was some really cute guys, three of them to be exact.. they were babbling about a basketball game, or somthing and kept calling me honey, and sweety, lol im not sure if they were really there or not.. then I heard a voice say "here comes Dr. Jawad" Okay, Nicole.. take three deep breaths sweety.. and then I woke up in recovery with a women telling me how beuatiful I was. Im not sure of her name but she made it okay to wake up without my mom or anyone esle I knew. I wasnt able to talk yet, but i could hear here, and she was just telling me I was beuatiful over and over, and that I was going to be gorgeous, and she was a gastric by pass patient, finally after about 20 minutes of me dozing in and out to her voice she asked me to talk to her. Which I tryed, but the words werent coming out, but I could see and hear her. She was really great.. I pointed to my throat,and she said I know, its because of the breathing tube, and I shook my head no, and finally spit out that I could talk because my mouth was bone dry. She gave me a sponge lolli pop lol. Then, she asked me how I was doing. I said im fine... my throat didnt hurt, and I had no pain anywhere. She said, okay.. we are going to take you to your room now, where your mom and boyfriend are waiting on you. I said okay, and I dont remember anything else, until the nurse woke me up to take my BP and temp, her name was "Verona" and she was the nurses assistant.. but I never seen the nurse that day, well if I did, I didnt remember. Anyway, the rest of the day was a blurr, I remember a few things here and there.. the night nurse came, "Jean" she was really great,I dont remember the nurses assistants name.. then I was woke up at like 7AM this morning by Kelly... who just wanted to say "hi" I mumbled a groggy hello and off she went.. I went back to sleep. Sometime in all that I walked twice.. dont remember that.. infact theres lots of things I dont remember lol but I do know that I didnt have ANY real pain. Nothing I couldnt get over. Although, I did take hydrocordone twice. And just did again since I got home. The three hour car drive was awfull. Anyways.. Dr. Jawad was great, the nurse I had today "Yvonne" was great.. Verona was great.. everyone was great. And then my angel, Jan stopped by and talked to me, and she was very nice and encouraging. The Jennifer the nutritionist stopped byand she's always great.. and I love talking to her. Dr. Jawad had a really busy day today and I wasnt released until 7PM.. and he gave me the option of staying till tomorrow, but my mom was really sore sleeping in the chair, and I was kinda ready to go home. He discharged me and the women that was in the registration waiting room at the same time. The hospital was great, everthing was great, and I am great. Im ready to start this journey, an I plan on following the directions 100%!! If anyone wants to talk to me, or ask me questions, Im here. Im gonna take pics of my staples tomorrow, I want to have a really informative bandster blog, since there arent very many on here! See ya later!  

11/23/2006 THANKSGIVING EVE!!!
Okay,So.. I figure its time to begin creating my real blog like everyone else, since the time is getting nearer. If you want to go back and read the archives, feel free.. Well.. today is Thanksgiving.. and there are tons of things I have to be thankful about this year. First would be the chance to start my life over again by getting this band. Not many people get that chance to correct things they have let go wrong with their life, but god smiled on me, an poof " I was approved" :P Second would be my mother, She has been played a vital role in my journey thus far, and I know she will be there all the way. Third is my horses.. I know that after surgery, I can pick up where I left off all those years ago and continue on my journey in hopes to one day be a world champion barrel racer and breakaway roper. Fourth is for my fiance.. The poor thing is about to fall apart. He decided he was going to eat like me to make it easier.. but.. he's crumbling without his sugar and carbs..(Up till now, I never realized how these little things affected our life.) I can go on and on.. but im sure your bored to tears :P  But.. before I stop with the things I am greatful for.. I also want to say that I am very greatful for the doctor's that I work for.But especially (Dr. Mora) He specializes in weight loss through acupuncture and a specialized diet.. which I tryed and did lose a nice amount of weight. He has totally, and I mean totally changed my way of thinking. Whenever I eat, I read labels, I think about what I am puting in my mouth. Im so much more aware of what I am doing to my body then I ever was before. I have seen countless doctors, and I feel they all "tryed" to explain it to me.. but it never sank in completely. I dont eat carbs anymore, and I dont even think about touching sugar. (Splenda all the way) I know whats good and whats bad and to my suprise I am avoiding the bad. I have even become one of those naggy people that warns you what your about to put in your mouth is bad.. heheh... But in a way, im proud of myself. I got it! I finally got it! But most importantly Dr. Mora was put in my life before this surgery to teach me how to eat and be healthy, and he is the reason I think I will be succesful with my band. I wont work against it. I am going to work WITH IT! I am going to succeed! THANK YOU DR. MORA!!!! 

The day is getting closer. Only three days to go.. im not scared in the eeekkk lets run since of the word.. im not sure what this kinda scared is..I will let you know when I find out. I hope that my words our helpful to others reading this. I hope that I can go onto help other people succeed with their tool!