Nickycole

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I just cant keep from bursting with excitement, the closer it gets to surgery day! I know, I know.. I am exactly one week away.. feels like forever.. but im ready!! 

This weekend, I went and had a little fun for ole time sake! We went to a barrel race in Brighton, on the Indian Reservation here in Florida.. me and all my horsey friends. (Kathy, Cindy, Babette,Barbara) and ran some barrels. We all came home losers, ecept barbara, she won some money on her colt and my mom won money at the casino lol.

Anyways.. I keep looking at the before and after pics and I see all these beuatiful women and men. I keep thinking to myself, that although its going to be nice to be thin, im not doing it to be pretty (im sure they arent either) Im doing this because I am only 20yrs old and I am so unheathly. I cant be physically active anymore without being in pain, and I know its only going to get worse in time. Most importantly I want to be able to ride my horses competitively again at the point I was before I put all this weight on. Thats my goal!!! There are soooo many things I want to do and I cant wait! :0)

Well, Today was my pre op appt. I am much much better now. My fear has faded and now I am really excited. I can dispell some of the myths that us beginner bandsters might hear or might get confused about. Since this is my first surgery (of an age I can remember) I was a tad scared about exactly what happen when you get to the hospital. Unfortunately, there arent a wide array of bandsters on here to chat with. (Although I am very greatful to all my other friends on here that have had other type of surgerys that take their time to talk to me, it would have calmed my fears sooner to talk to someone who went through the lap band procedure.) I hope when this is all said and done that people will ask me questions. I would be more than happy to help anyone out, even if they just want to chat, I am most always online, (lucky me, I have access @ work :0)!! Anywho, as I was saying, since this is my 1st surgery I was scared of what happen when you actually get in the door. I have to say all the things I have heard about Dr. Jawad were completely off in my opinion. He may be soft spoken but he anwsered every question I had, and he really calmed my fears. He's one of those doctors that dont talk a lot unless they are spoken too, and that gives people the impression he has a bad beside manner.. if you talk to him, he talks back, and is a very nice nice person. I am glad I have him, and I am totally ready. He explained everything that happen to me from the time I walk in the door. First I have to get my finger pricked because I am hyperglycemic with severe reactive hypoglycemia, then I pee in a cup to make sure one last time I am not pregnant.(Just a precaution because I have all my parts and a fiancee heheh) eventually I will get an I.V they will give me a couple different drugs and tell me to count to 10, and then I am suppose to wake up and not remember a thing. There is no cathader, but there is a breathing tube that will be removed before you wake up. Then after I wake up, I will eventually be asked to get up and walk, then because of my insurance I wont be released until 9am the next morning. If your self pay, your done on an outpatient visit at a different facility unless you choose to have it done at the hospital. Everyone at the hospital was very friendly. I have to say a big weight(haha) has been lifted off my shoulders and I am breathing easier now that I know whats going to happen to me, when and how.

Well... Tomorrow is my pre-op appt. Im excited to go and im just ready to make the day get here sooner. Im scared. Not so much of the surgery or dying but of waking up with breathing tubes or cathaders.. I hope I dont freak. It scares me. When my dad passed away they gave him a breathing tube and it was very very scary and I cant get that image out of my head, or the end result. So, my fears come with reason, I try to tell myself I am not being a baby, but I dunno!? I know that I am going through with this. I have fought too long and too hard to give up now,and I wont. I wish that I could talk to another bandster that had a positive experience to share with me. I enjoy reading about them but I want someone to tell me step by step what they went through and how they felt, with all luck one of Dr. Jawads patients. It would really ease my mind. I really enjoy talking to any of his patients whether they are RNY, Lap band or anything of the sort.